If i had lotsa money, i'd buy this! It's super pretty. Please go see the link okay!

Click t see it being worn. Whatevr it is, th top is just super super pretty.

Beijing + Hong Kong in five days. It's DECEMBER already! Frikken fast. I haven't continued my holiday homework yet!

Only half done. Which is not bad already lah.

KAY I'M GG ON A SOLO TRIP TO POPULAR TO BUY WEIRD STUFF. (: i like weird stuff.

I AM STUCK AT HOME. LIKE, SERIOUSLY.

My mom brought my keys to work!! I'm feeling caged.

GRRAAAHH.

LIM QI XUAN'S coming back tmr. Eh dugong, i capitalised your name, good not? aaaahahahhha/

whatever i am damn sleepy and i want to watch Oprah but there's only ellen. ):

I plan to attach brightly colored thangs to my keys so they never get whisked off by ppl again. This isn't the first time! >:(

LIMOUSINE. PLEASE.THANKS

beijing in i don't know how many days.

oh and i'm streaking my hair blue. pretty, much.

I asked my mom what bout choir? Then she was like, "if they say, "you can't come to school with dyed hair", say, "kay, i'm not coming then"," coolios, much.

Buy me lovely glossy magazines, i like.

I DON'T WANT KANGA SKINS PLEASE.

I'm not gna blog about chalet, not gna blog about anything luh. COS I'M DAMN BORED. >:(

DATE ME OUT OKAY!

EILEEN! NEVER DATE ME. See luh, i'm dying at home. There's nothing at all to do!

))))))))):

It's nine forty five. Early enough such that it'd only be 11 plus when i go out. But alone's so boring. If i see ridiculous thingies i won't have nobody to share them with. SUCKS EH.

TELL ME A SECRET!

MY EYES ARE DAMN ITCHY AND PAINFUL AFTER PLAYING PS! ARRRRGGGHHH!!! I AM ALLERGIC TO THAT THING. MY GOODNESS DAMN PAIN

LATER SWOLLEN AND UGLY HOW?! DAMN. MY EYES ARE SMALL ENOUGH OKAY.

AND NO I DID NOT PEEK AT ANYBODY.

I. Am. So. Irritated.

I WANT TO GOUGE MY EYEBALLS OUT!!!!

Bloody hell i'm damn bored.

I WANT TO. KNIT! ahahahahaha

Some iritating girl from my pri school is disturbing me. Why do little girls from my pri schl keep annoying me?! THEY SHOULD GO TALK TO PPL THEIR AGE! >:( i am mean and nasty, they should just go away.

auditions tmr. ): i hate auditions. And anyway, we auditioned already, so what's the point? NOTHING BETTER TO DO.

I WANNA GO FOR SERVICE THIS FRIDAY. THIS IS UNFAIR ):

So i've been meaning to update, but like, blogger wouldn't let me the other day.

Procrastinated all the way till now.

OH! Started watching a korean drama called uhm.. 白雪公主 yep, that's it. English title is Sweet Love?



That's not the entire picture, but i post what i like, so there. NYEH!

Aiyah, not very sure.

ANYWAY! Qixuan blogged about wanting to be a guy sometimes and that's like, so true. If i were a guy, i'd wanna be HIM!



He's super super cute. (: so like, yeah, i'm pretty addicted.

MY TUITION TEACHER WANTS ME TO SKIP CHURCH TO GO TUITION! And i was like, haaaarrrrr. ): irritating, much.

And she keeps on pestering me. I think i'll have to go for tuition. She was like, "why cannot go church later, ah?"

"uhm.. because.. i'm not the pastor?"

DOH!

WO DE MA YAH!

I'm so totally gonna be sulking all the way thru tuition luh. GRAH!

And all the sec twos will be together in a group, meaning i won't be free of that annoying guy. WHY DOESN'T ANYONE BELIEVE THAT THERE'S NOTHING GG ON BETWEEN US?! [edit: i forgot, i'm officially sec three. Gee, getting old.]

Grr.

FAN SI REN LE.

YESYES. I'm speaking more chinese. So weird right?! Cos i can't understand korean and i can't read chinese subtitles fast enough, so i've been listening to my mother tongue practically the whole day!

EH WALAO. THE SUBTITLES ARE FAN TI ZI OK! You damn clever you read lah. At least my chinese got a B3 this time. Better than the past few C6s. NEH.

So like, i'm gg for my cousin's BBQ (chalet) this friday (it's her birthday) then saturday i might rush back for tuition. Else it's rush back on saturaday night for church on sunday. Which i might not even get to attend cos i have to go for tuition.

ARRRR. STINKY TUITION! ):

AND MY TUITION TEACHER WENT ON AND ON AT ME FOR TEN WHOLE MINUTES WHILE I WAS WANTING TO WATCH MY SHOW WHICH I HAD TO PAUSE! >:(

And the entire time i was like, "orh. okay, orh. orh, orh. okay. mmm. okay, orh. kay. kay. kay, bye"

Then my mom asked me, "what did she tell you?"

"i don't know. i wasn't listening"

AHAHAHAH I'M SO DEAD LUH.

She was telling me.. i don't know! I was only half-listening. Trying hard to, but can't.

Anyway i have this sudden feeling that i'm damn busy, but actually i'm not luh. Heh. Heh, heh.

I KEEP THINKING THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE GOING TO END LIKE, NOW! ):

Which is the suckiest thing, ever.

Eh but some primary schools haven't even let out yet. *smirk*

I AM A LIU MANG.

Aiyah, whatever.

LIM QI XUAN I WANT TO BE A GUY ALSO LEH. Like, i can do ugly and disgusting things in public without people saying anything, cos guys are like that. So, yeah. Cool what.

And i can wear pants and sit with my legs wide open, and nobody will ever say "you are a girl, please sit more appropriately" to me, ever again. EVER, AGAIN.

AND PEOPLE WHO ALWAYS LAUGH AT ME WHEN I SAY I'M GOING TO COOK HUH. BETTER STOP IT.

I AM NOT A QIAN JING XIAO JIE OKAY! I do housework! (once every 14 years?)

AIYAH WHATEVER IT IS, I CAN COOK. AND I'LL PROVE IT TO YOU. SO, YEAH.

Walao eh, Cedar sucks luh. They were supposed to give us our streaming results by the first week of november. I HAVEN'T RECEIVED ANY NEWS!

Damn slow please.

I am damn irritated cause I like my nails too much. Like, super french manicure-ish please? And it's natural and not painted.

BUT I HAVE TO FRIKKEN CUT WHEN I GO FOR PIANO!

And i'm gna catch frisbees on sat. LIKE THAT HOW TO CATCH?!

NEHNEHPOK.

I WANT THIS!!

Super cute right?! I'm so going to do the moo moo nails when i don't have to go back to school for choir!

I GOT IT! (:

Yeah, the black iPod. Heh. Like, i finally have an ipod after surviving without any kind of mp3 for about a year.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVE LIM QI XUAN! (:(:

Your name's pink cause you call me a bimbo and it's time to bimbotify you! REMEMBER THE MAKEOVER OK!

(((((:

i shall be nice to you tomorrow, for once. One day out of 365 days, i'm able to sacrifice. HEH.

I HOPE YOU SEE THE HIGHWAY TOMORROW!

My birthday was fattening! Had buffet at Traders' Hotel. Know, i saw lots of Iraqi soldiers there. My mom's bf say they're here to enjoy, before being sent to their death. So sad right? And here we are, having fun, enjoying holidays.

Then after eating so much that i could die, i went walking around. And saw the perfect present for LIM QI XUAN cause it was so childish!!

I'm a bit sian to blog about my birthday but PERSEVERE!

Then went to buy LOVELY CHILI CRABS and went home, slacked around, and ate some more! OMG SEE FATTENING!

But i already decided to be a ROLLING BALL OF HAPPINESS with qx. ahahahaha. I don't think skinny people are happy you know.

So ya, i went out with qixuan today. Walked super lots and ate pretty little. Aahahhahah, good!

Luckily i forgot to bring my sign, else i'd have to wear it. Ehehe.

Bought a yellow polo tee from b.u.m equipment and a 3/4 denim pants from some i don't know what store i didn't bother looking at the name. Bought separately but looks so pretty put together!

I've been spending so much! Oh my goodness, for this past few days i've been spending like, every single day. ): no good

My plans to go out tmr are cancelled! I shall go find other ppl to go out with, cos i so don't wna stay at home. Like, borrrrrring!

DATE ME.

Here I Go Again

Father, hear my prayer

I need the perfect words

Words that he will hear

And know they're straight from You

I don't know what to say

I only know it hurts

To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time

I'll speak the words of life

With Your fire in my eyes

But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words

What am I so afraid of?

Chorus:Cause here I go again

Talkin 'bout the rain

And mulling over things that won't live past today

And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love Him

But here I go again, here I go again

Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son

If he will just believe; he will never die

But how then will he know what he has never heard

Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

You love him, You love him

What Am I so afraid

What am I so afraid

What am I so afraid of?How then will he know

What he has never heard

They played a clip of Casting Crowns during service just now and they were performing this song. I think it's wonderful!

I teared when he sang the first stanza (?) but the back part no, cause I couldn't make out the lyrics. The front was really clear though and if you really listen to the lyrics, it's like, touching.

Yep, listen to it carefully kay? I already uploaded the song into the player. And also All The Same by Sick Puppies. It's really good too (:

I got like lots of smses from random strangers saying, "Happy Birthday Dionne! YOU ARE INDEED THE KING!". I didn't even have my phone with me, till Jem told me not to reply any smses I was receiving cause I'd be wasting my messages.

So being the kpo person I am, I immediately scrambled to my room just in time to see a message received. And many more followed, with the same message, only in different texts!

I FEEL SO LOVED LUH. Thanks Jeremy! I know it was done by you, even thoug you're refusing to tell me anything. LOL! And congrats on your job. Job = Moolah! Moolah = Ipod!

There's two minutes to go till it's officially my birthday. Will i feel any different 2 minutes later? I highly doubt so.

Choir sucked majorly today. I was crying and singing at the same time. If I've already mentioned that, I don't care. It sucks.

Some people are just so biased. So biased.

Oh well, I'll get thru choir. I know I will. And in the meantime try not to vent my anger on the people who are totally innocent.

I wna go RZone21! Everyone's making me so envious! I'm so gna go during piano termbreak. Afterall, I can only go for these last few weeks! After that I'm no longer eligible cause I'd be sec3.

Growing up is a really fast process, no? I would definitely not say it's painless. It's enjoyable though! Friends make a big difference! Very very big difference.

Even though I've had some friendship problems, I now know who my truest friends are! Like, heart heart heart! I am going to do something very very wrong. THIS! <3

Oh and did I mention I wore a FEED DIONNE CANDY sign around PS? Good, if I did. Better if I didn't.

TRICK OR TREAT? MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I am insanely jealous of Toby. Lim Qi Xuan if you're reading this, I am jealous! I want a Toby too! So crazily sexy can?!

I'm FOURTEEN.

Here I Go Again

Father, hear my prayer

I need the perfect words

Words that he will hear

And know they're straight from

YouI don't know what to say

I only know it hurts

To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time

I'll speak the words of life

With Your fire in my eyes

But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words

What am I so afraid of?

Chorus:Cause here I go again

Talkin 'bout the rain

And mulling over things that won't live past today

And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love Him

But here I go again, here I go again

Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son

If he will just believe; he will never die

But how then will he know what he has never heard

Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

You love him, You love him

What Am I so afraid

What am I so afraid

What am I so afraid of?How then will he know

What he has never heard

They played a clip of Casting Crowns during service just now and they were performing this song. I think it's wonderful!

I teared when he sang the first stanza (?) but the back part no, cause I couldn't make out the lyrics. The front was really clear though and if you really listen to the lyrics, it's like, touching.

Yep, listen to it carefully kay? I already uploaded the song into the player. And also All The Same by Sick Puppies. It's really good too (:

I got like lots of smses from random strangers saying, "Happy Birthday Dionne! YOU ARE INDEED THE KING!". I didn't even have my phone with me, till Jem told me not to reply any smses I was receiving cause I'd be wasting my messages.

So being the kpo person I am, I immediately scrambled to my room just in time to see a message received. And many more followed, with the same message, only in different texts!

I FEEL SO LOVED LUH. Thanks Jeremy! I know it was done by you, even thoug you're refusing to tell me anything. LOL! And congrats on your job. Job = Moolah! Moolah = Ipod!

There's two minutes to go till it's officially my birthday. Will i feel any different 2 minutes later? I highly doubt so.

Choir sucked majorly today. I was crying and singing at the same time. If I've already mentioned that, I don't care. It sucks.

Some people are just so biased. So biased.

Oh well, I'll get thru choir. I know I will. And in the meantime try not to vent my anger on the people who are totally innocent.

I wna go RZone21! Everyone's making me so envious! I'm so gna go during piano termbreak. Afterall, I can only go for these last few weeks! After that I'm no longer eligible cause I'd be sec3.

Growing up is a really fast process, no? I would definitely not say it's painless. It's enjoyable though! Friends make a big difference! Very very big difference.

Even though I've had some friendship problems, I now know who my truest friends are! Like, heart heart heart! I am going to do something very very wrong. THIS! <3>

Oh and did I mention I wore a FEED DIONNE CANDY sign around PS? Good, if I did. Better if I didn't.

TRICK OR TREAT? MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I am insanely jealous of Toby. Lim Qi Xuan if you're reading this, I am jealous! I want a Toby too! So crazily sexy can?!

I'm FOURTEEN.

Went for choir early in the morning. Once again, I reached super early. Like, eight twenty or something? What kind of stupid timing is that? Choir starts at nine my goodness.

Then went to PS for lunch, with Qixuan and Nicole. It was a super last minute decision luh, cause I was being neh and insisted on following Qixuan even tho she was buying my present cos I didn't wna go home by myself. Then Nic said she wants to eat lunch, so she came along too.

Ended up spending like hell loads of time wandering around going into every store, touching things and not buying anything at all.

Eh I asked a total stranger where she bought her nice top! I'm not telling you ppl though. I made QX ask a stranger too, cause she was wearing overalls that were quite nice and she wants overalls.

And that stupid woman forgot to give me my present in the end! Like, so lousy. I'm damn scared luh, it's like, pink.

Oh ya, I'm a bimbo anyway. So, it's ok!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR OUR MAJOR SHOPPING SPREE! I NEED SO MUCH STUFF. Like, SO MUCH.

I just reached home half an hour ago and now I'm gna go shower and go back out. TIRING!

Omg i am extremely tired after a conversation with QiXuan. It's like the high factor just kept going up up and up and now suddenly drop back to normal, a bit hard to adapt.

Do i really start conversations in a bizarre way? Like MERRY CHRISTMAS! Asking random questions, starting with hahahaaaahaahhaa or something totally off. I think it's ok mah. Like, straight to the point.

Next time i will say, "oh, it's lovely weather we are having today" ala Pink Panther! That movie is HILARIOUS!

Okay i'm making myself hyped up again by thinking of a million things at once and being unable to type that fast, it's like, BOOM! Mini explosion in my mind.

Bye! And like, FEED ME CANDY.

Super wna go running NOW! Can't cause of my flu. Am banned.

This is so shitty. Like, it's the first week of the hols and i'm sick! GGRAAHHH!!! >:(

I sound super weird and all. LIKE, LOUSAYE!

The whole world can tell i'm having a blocked nose. Nobody can tell about my blocked ears though and they're all talking to me normally. I'm straining my ears like KE-RAY-ZEE! I think when my ear finally unblocks itself, everything will seem exceptionally loud for awhile.

GOSH I WNA GO OUT AND PLAY! NOWNOWNOW! BUT IT'S LIKE FIVEELEVEN ALREADY AND IT'S GETTING LATE AND I'M HAVING MUSCLE ACHE WHICH IS TERRIBLE WHEN I TRY TO SKIP! >:(

What?! I must skip! How else can i get a job as cabin crew?! Dumbdumb.

Aahahah. I wna work with kids! Or in a candy store! Then i'll smell lovely and sweet. Attract cockroaches only ah! Ehehehe. Oh later attract hot guys with sweet tooths!

And like i wna blog but i don't know what to blog so, ya, nevermind!

I AM THE KING! AHAHAHAHHAHA! BYE! AHhahahahhahahahahahah!
Oh and i want my sucker. My baby food! The goopy stuff! EEEEEYUR! And my bib! And my CUTLERY SET! >:( must!

I GOT MY SEXY BABY BOTTLE BACK ALREADY! NO LUH, NOT FOUND. I BOUGHT A NEW ONE. SHARE WITH NIC. EEHHEHHE. Be jealous. Okay, bye for real!

*high high high high*

Needs:
new waterbottle (I left my cute little waterbottle on the bus! ): and all because i was too busy remembering to bring stupid Eunice's file with me which is BLUE and ugly cause it's BLUE and a weird shade at that and i don't like BLUE and i've digressed bloody far.)
new slippers (The soles are broken like shit)
MP3 player (My last one died a year ago! Oh my god.)
new jacket (Japan jacket is way oversized! Ripcurl hoodie is hard to wear. ):)
new jeans (The bottoms are all frayed cause i step on them too much! Too bad luh, short ppl's jeans always drag on the floor. Ahahaha!)

Wants:
stripey polo tee
nice going-out shorts
new piano books
sexy pink/red camera!
new handbag

See? My needs override my wants! I'm not a spoilt brat, kay.
[edit: I realised they are the same. Five each. Oops.]

The worst thing is, they don't even overlap! Meaning I can't kill two birds with one stone. Also meaning, I'll have to spend even more money! >:( the thought of spending money makes me sad k. Cause after i spend my money, I'll have no more. Duh.

Can always ask my mom for more, but, naw. Don't have to. She gives it willingly. Still, I like spending my own money. As in, savings. You don't understand luh. I was blog hopping and I read this girl's blog which was so entertaining I tell you! Hahaha funny.

Choir tomorrow. I'm so going to die in th AS2 luh, dears.

Going out with Nicole tomorrow! I haven't gone out with her in ages. Maybe like 3 million years ago. I have no idea where we're going though. She's gonna bring me to some I don't know where place. I am a mountain tortoise. :D

We're gonna wear colorful sneakers to school tomorrow! Sexy, much.

Me = red
Nic = green && pink

Warao, we're gna have to hide them in the AS2 under our bags k! And i have no idea how i'm gna hide low cut black socks. Hello? Everyone's wearing white socks and i'm gna be wearing black? How ah? Do something drastic to my hair, then they'll all look at my head instead of my feet! I am a genius.

I always start out not knowing what to blog about then end up blogging a lot (at least that's what I think at that point in time) then after I publish I realise that I actually blogged damn little.

Ohoh! You know the nine o'clock show that woman? MeiYa I think. Oh my goodness she is damn gross. Scheming little bitch. I didn't watch initially but my mom watches so I just joined in the fun. Heh.

Pierre Png is disgusting. His face grosses me out. I don't know why. Eeeyur. I don't like him ok.

Blogskins is being a pig. It's refusing to load. Asshole. I don't make my own skins luh. You think I have so much time? Actually yes. I'd rather sleep. There's some stupid DU NAN advertisement on tevee now. So lame.

Jem's coming tomorrow too. He has O levels! Ahahahaa I'm so gna laugh my ass off at him, kay? Quite mean luh, but still. In two years it'll be my turn to be laughed at so I should just laugh all i want now. Heh!

I am damn tired of blogging. Shall go do something else that's more productive. Like shit.

Somebody from Australia has been reading my blog. Who're you? Or is there just something wrong with sitemeter? Ehhhh, who cares.

I slept fourteen hours today! How cool is that. Way.

Lol, i didn't even realise i was sick. Took me a day to connect the symptoms together and figure out i had flu.

I wna Seventeen subscription! Like, Seventeen Seventeen, not, local Seventeen. Get it? Yeah yeah yeah.

My mom refuses to get it cause she says it's costly. GRAH! >:( it's so much more interesting than the local one! Really expensive though. I only bought it a few times. Cost between five to seven dollars. SIGHHHH，why's there such a thing as shipping fees? If there wasn't, i could get clothes from Forever21 that's not found in the outlets here.

Pigs.

My mom refuses to tell me what she got for my birthday. That's another five days of suspense. HELLO?! I can't stand it!

Okok, patience is a virtue. WAITWAITWAITWAITWAIT!! *EXPLODES*

I'm just dying to find out!

I'm so bloody bored and there's 2 more months. So so so dead luh.

No wonder it looks weird, i've been typing in the html screen. SOMEBODAYE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO!

I'm dying for tuition to start, but i know i'll regret it once it starts and start dying again for tuition to end. Why does it have to be like THIS? Gross!

Seventeen subscription please? I'll read it till the pages are rotten, just to get your money's worth out of it.

Subscribe for me k? Birthday present. Christmas present. Halloween present! Awwww man.

I think i shall go buy myself a few fishies and stare at them for hours. Then promptly overfeed them. Hahahhaahaah.

Or i shall go learn cooking and make everyone LAOSAI. Cool manzxz.

Go barge into ppl's house and spend the whole day there irritating their parents and siblings and maids and dogs and cats and hamsters and fishies and ants and lizards. YAY!

I've just been told lame jokes. More please. Contribute to the lame jokes already swimming in my head. Eheheheheh.

It feels weird to breathe out. The air comes out hot. You wanna cook an egg? Come, put it in my mouth. Come back ten minutes later. I'll have a hard boiled egg all ready for you (:

Friday:
Went Fort Canning in the morning with YingYing. Lydia had track. And in the end she didn't turn up AGAIN. Frustrating, frustrating.

Spent a lot of time looking for saga seeds and didn't really find a lot. The nice nice uncle at the security booth or something said he'd keep them for me if he saw any while patrolling. I think he was super nice to me 'cause i wished him a nice day. So! Be nice to people, and they'll be nice back to you. Heh.

Then spent like, 2 hours, at Park Mall. Shopping? Naw, the shops there are way too posh for a poor student like me.

Was talking to an auntie and an uncle who had two stalls at the lift lobby. I don't even know them, okay. The uncle did magic tricks for me! Ahahaha, it was voluntary. I think he thinks i'm childish and will be easily amused, therefore he takes this opportunity to get an ego boost. No lah, can't be mean. He entertained me.

Went to Lydia's church, Evangel Family Church, in the evening for service. They talked about death and stuff like that. The video and drama was super touching and i teared up like 5 or 6 times. Hahaha, yeah, i'm that easily touched. I didn't notice anyone else crying! >:( heartless people.

Then the pastor (He didn't say his name. Or maybe i didn't catch it.) asked for people who wanted to accept Christ into their life and at first i was hesitating. Then i remembered what he said about people nowadays making their decisions on how the people around them would view them and how they would react. Basically, peer pressure, to some extent.

So i raised my hand. By that time i was like crying already luh. Then a counsellor brought me up to the front and stood me right in front of the pastor. Alamak. I was on the big screen thingie. Like, oh no, everyone's watching me cry. And this time it's not one or two tears. It's like, the floodgates were opened and the tears were gushing.

I rededicated my life.

(:

this seems like a good place to end, but i have to go on.

Saturday:
Woke up at like, 5 plus. Went to some walking thing. IT WAS SUPER CROWDED! Like, seriously, ok.

Not much comments lah, just, dunno. My cousins were there too and i got bullied, as per normal. They're like, four and eight. The four-year-old is SO STRONG. I really felt the impact when she pushed me. Owtch.

So it's true you shouldn't offend women. Hahahaha.

And i'm back home now. Blogging after sleeping for about, an hour. I'm down to the nitty gritty. Gosh.

Okok, going out again. Send my other cousin to guitar.

See ya! (:

[I really can't, really can't. I don't know why i feel so uncomfortable, but i just do. It's not you. It's me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say it. No guts.]

Walked home from QiXuan's house just now. Through Yishun park.

Oh yeah, i was almost knocked down by a fast-moving lorry, according to QX. I can't really see through my fringe now and also, i was looking in the wrong direction. Luckily she shouted at me, but, i crossed anyway. Eh.

So, slow walks through parks = self-questioning.

Yeah, was thinking about stuff. Like, what do i see in my future? Do i want to be a really successful business woman? A homemaker? Something really artsy that i love but have to eat grass to survive?

That's just the long term. I mean, i started out there. Then i went on to think about short term. Realised i couldn't even come up with anything, so i quit thinking about it. (or maybe i just don't want to tell any of you.)

Then i thought about how sometimes i'm so quick to judge people. I think i should stop that. 'Cause somehow, everyone has a story to tell. If everybody judges everybody else, there would never be any acceptance. So the next time i start going, "ew, loser" without even getting to know a person, please someone, just remind me, okay? (: thanks

What else did i think about? I thought about how i can take it when certain people touch me but when it comes to others, i just, can't. There's no reason. Just can't that's all.

I realised i'm not the only one either, so, at least i'm not as freaky as i thought.

I don't know what to do with my future. Why do some people have dreams, while others spend a lifetime wandering around, lost?

How come some people can say, "i've got a passion for *whatever*" ? Why can't others? Do they have some inbuilt sensor that i'm lacking?

Ok, enough of all this thinking. It's making me want to sleep. Sleeping is addictive. Like, the more i sleep, the more i need to. There's an overwhelming urge to just close my eyes and sleep. I wonder why.

When Somebody Loved Me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "i will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.

Lyrics from a song from Toy Story 2. It's super nice but like, real sad.

Played it on the piano. Was sight-reading so i had a chance to read the lyrics. Almost cried luh.

It's like, when you play you can seriously imagine a toy in a corner, abandoned. And a girl comes bursting into th room, like, all hip and shit. Ignoring the toy. Whatevr, just, really saaaad ):

OH YA! I cut my hair! It's quite short now. Aiyerrrr.

But the ends are wispy. YAY!

Damn, have to go back to school tomorrow. Boring. There's like, nothing to do in school! Grrrr.

Oh and i lost 2 earrings yesterday. And my 7-year-old necklace on saturday.

SHIT damn hope it's still somewhere around my room. Have to go look around later! >:( like, hello?! I'VE BEEN WEARING IT FOR SEVEN YEARS!! GAH!

About two years ago, i was going to leave my primary school. At that time i didn't know i was coming to Cedar.

Two years later, i'm going to leave 2M'06. At this point in time, i don't know which class i'll be joining.

See the similarities?

There's one more.

I don't miss my primary school and neither am i going to miss 2M much. Not because there were bad things that happened, or i found the class/school boring. More because i'm excited about what's happening next.

Maybe it's better this way. It'll help me make new friends more easily, yeah?

Whatever it is, i won't miss my class. I'll still see these people around the school. Hey, we have 2 more years together, albeit not in the same class. What's there to miss?

On a lighter note!

Watched Death Note with YingYing. Lydia was supposed to go, but couldn't make it in the end ): anyway, Death Note is super nice. Go watch it, ok?

And before you think the ending is crap, stay till the credits have finished rolling. Yep, just, stay (:

We're going fort canning on friday to pick saga seeds! Like, YAY! ^^

If you think it's dumb, you can just shut up. I love those things! Red and shiny. Woosh!

I HAVE SIX MARS BARS TO EAT. SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP!

Oh and PastaMania's servings are SUPER HUGE!

I ate at around 2plus, almost three. And i'm still pretty full, even now!

Eat Penne Cabonara. It's nice. Creamy with bacon. Yum! And some italian soda thing? Order passionfruit. Yep.

OH!!!!!!

I bought a new piano book! It's full of Disney songs. So, yeah, be jealous. Bye, babes! Eheeehehehe.

I don't even wna get involved man.

We watched Remember The Titans today. It's sooo inspirational! Like, teamwork and acceptance of others despite their differences and all.

I love. Shan't talk too much about it cause almost everyone watched. I like Sunshine! He's super funny. And Julius. Gerry, though he looks like an ape. The two fatasses.

Ahahahaha.

Learnt new song during choir today, ahh, super nice! Today's choir was super slack luh. Like, spent only a short while learning When You Believe, then after that lazed around doing chem holiday homework. Heh. I'm SO hardworking, i can't believe it too!

I'm gg to malaysia tomorrow! Like, for a full day. Ehehehe, at least there's gna be something to do other than laze around the whole day. I wna see fireflies.

So pretty. The only time i ever saw fireflies up close was when i was about 9, in the Night Safari.

I wna go to Fort Canning to pick the red seed thingies, i don't know what they're called. YingYing told me, but i forgot. Ooops, sorry!

I wna pick i wna pick i wna pick! >:( i want i want i want! GRRR!

Somebody better bring me. I DON'T CARE. SOMEBODY BRING ME GO PICK THOSE RED THINGS SOON!

Thanks whoever does. (: Zoo has also! Though not as much, suckers.

Here comes the excited bubbly feeling of anticipation again. I love that feeling. It makes me want to laugh. Feels so carefree. (:

Bye loves! (:

*THREE SMILIES!*

Picking up the pieces. You'll never get me down.

Ever since i got my first handphone at eleven, this is the first time my phone is getting confiscated.

Not like i never exceeded, but my mom's bf finally got too irritated by my constant exceeding, that from now on, for every dollar i exceed, my phone gets confiscated for a day. Gah, irritating!

I'm gna feel so disconnected from the world for so long. There won't be that familiar heaviness in my pocket, no pulling out of my phone to check the time, no flipping it open when i see bengs in the far distance so i can pretend to be busy and not meet their eyes. No more calling people easily, meaning i can't be easily contactable. Some people would jump for joy at this, it means more freedom. I get all the freedom i need and want though, what's the point?!

Gosh, i never knew how reliant i've become on a small piece of orange and white plastic. This should be pretty cool. Learning how to survive without a phone again. Will i have to resort to carrying ten cent coins and phone cards around? There aren't even much pay phones around anymore!

Phone's gna be confiscated for fifteen days, woo, sexy!

I'm gna start on chem homework! Haha, Nicole and i were being like, i wna do chem homework! just now. So gross right?

But! If we get it out of the way now, it means more time to do other stuff during the holidays! Ha.

I can't wait. Oooo. LOL!

Didja notice the new music player? You have gotta. It's humongous! I set the colors to pink and grey, like the skin, but apparently it didn't wna listen to me. I can edit it anytime, but, ah well, lazy.

I'm starting to like pink. I am a color flirt! and proud of it.

There can be miracles, when you believe.

I chose to take F&N instead of another another humanity!

Dumb or what? Who cares, it's the interest.

Yep (:

Rest of the results, as promised, so you can gloat. Ah well.

Eng: A2
Chi: B3
Hist: C6
Geog: B3
Math: A2
Science: B3
Lit: C6

I have two C6s for my humanities, how on earth am i supposed to take a humanity plus ss/humanity you tell me!? It's like, killing myself.

Why not take F&N instead and pull up my L1R5. Like, duh.

For snobbish people who are ready to go like, "Oh! F&N is only for people who can't study!" *smirk smirk*, think again, alright? Just, go do some reflection, yeah.

I'm getting all excited again. I don't know what about. Just, a little hyped up. Thinking of the new school year, new books, new supplies, new friends, new class. Taking F&N's cool in a way that you don't know what to expect cause we haven't really taken it in depth yet, so, *anticipation*.

Anyway, notice anything? Probably not.

I added a comments link! Yeah, so even if ppl spam nonsense, it won't show up on my blog. Having a tagboard makes your blog look ugly if it's spammed. A comment's link is different though. Having people spam it will just make it look like i've got lotsa comments. Ha, suckers.

Ooooooh F&N ahahahaha. I hope they let me in k. QiXuan thinks they'll call me up and ask me to reconsider. Blah, they should just go away. Seriously, i got myself so hyped up over F&N that i'm looking forward to it now and will be terribly disappointed if i don't get it.

I also don't want the class to be a full class of forty. Won't be so bonded lah, yeah.

Not looking forward to OAC. I kinda renewed my PASSION for choir yesterday. *chortles*

Not really, but still, i can honestly say i enjoyed choir yesterday. Was fun (:

Whatever, toodles!

Got back results today! Well, some.

It was like OMG terrifying. Was waiting damn shit anxiously kay. WOOSH!

Anyway, my chinese has improved! Ahahahahaha.

So like, my results are okay, better than i expected, other than history.

Eng: 88.9
Chi: 68
Hist: 52.5!

Hahahaha, 52.5. That's seriously scary alright. Who cares though, it's not like i'm taking history next year. No interest.

Blaaaablaaaa.

Lydia invited me t her church next friday and i'm gna see my pri sch friend again cause she invited her too. Long story, blabla.

Ahhhh i'm afraid to see what she's like now. I mean, the last time i saw her was about 6 months ago? And we didn't even talk.

Pretty sad, considering the fact that we were pretty damn close during our p5 and p6 year.

Anyway, whatever. Need t do stuff for my lil cousin.

I can't believe next friday is the last day of school! Like, ohmigosh, did my sec2 year just fly by? You've got to be kidding! Tell me you are! *i'm not*

DANG.

I'm gna be fourteen soon! Oooh scary. Heh. And soon i'll be forty-one. Ehehehe, old and wrinkly. This sounds so perverse.

Yingying says i intimidate people just by looking at them. Hah, that's crap. Who on earth has such a scary face? She seems t think i'm damn scary and intimidating and i can't remember the word she used. If you're reading this, please tell me what it is thru your blog or something. I'm anti-social.

I love my blogskin. I love shoes. I love love love.

I'm still feeling nervous abt seeing her next friday. She didn't even go back to school during teachers' day. We called her and msged her but she refused our calls. Ah, well.

Whatevr, gtg. Don't take care of yourselves too much. LIVE!

Diets. Diets make me feel in control and it's been too damn long.

Good. Hey, go calculate your BMI. It'll probably make you recoil in fear. "WHAT?! I'M THAT FAT?!"

Hahahaha, yeah, you are.

I like hot girls. Do you? Yeah, everybody does. I like bimbos. I like hot bimbos.

DVD/VCD marathon. I've never figured out which is which even up till now. One day when they come up with like, ACD, GCD, KCD and all that shit, i'll be even more confused.

I luuuurrrrvvvvve movies. Not the whole spending part though, that's why renting's GOOD! I just googled my name and guess what was the no.1 result?! Nicole's blog! Sexy, i like.

Why do people assume i'm a guy when they look at my name? Faggots. Do i assume you're a girl just cause your name's Noel or something? Or like, Joey? Aren't they rather feminine too?

OMFG i have to get rid of my pretty green nails tonight! SHIT I TOTALLY FORGOT. That sucks big time. I love my apple green nails. OH WAIT TOMORROW IS SUNDAY WTF.

I only remembered when my mom told me. Haha, loserrrr.

I get to keep my pretty nails for another day.

Am scheduled for a haircut and a facial. Yes! A FRIKKIN FACIAL. Like, omggggggggg. My mom's bringing me to something.. Somethingsomething, i don't remember what. I hope they don't wreck my face.

Recently discovered that my complexion functions 9842390 times better without any pimple cream whatsoever.

I wna work at a manicure place! I love nail polishes.

I wna work at Dashing Diva >:( i really really wna work there but i'm afraid i'll have to touch rough calloused feet that stink real bad. What'd i do then?!

I'd take up a job at Forever21 too. Topshop? THE PET STORE! I dont' mind any. But apparel's the best. Heh, cause then there'd always be lots of customers to keep me entertained and busy.

Did you know that Dashing Diva in Upper East Side, NYC has male manicurists? Sexy much. They wear cute pink polos. Hahahaahahaa.

This is turning out to be a long post. Rather bimbotic too. Who cares. Say it loud and proud. "I'M A BIMBO AND PROUD OF IT". Only bimbos are good-looking, no?

Did you know my class is lacking in girlie girls and i'm so dying in there?

Pleasepleaseplease God, let my class next year have girlie girls. What are girlie girls? Naaaah, you don't have to know. It's between me and God.

Bloody amazing.

I've trained myself to sleep with piling and drilling going on. Can you? I bet you'd just get up and start whining that the fuckers upstairs are disturbing your sleep.

It's not that loud actually. Maybe my hearing is just ruined.

Friday the 13th. Lol, i hope you get run over by a huge lorry. Wait, i take that back, what if you do.

What's up with blogger's word verification shit? Who cares, ignore.

Xiaxue has the prettiest camera and laptop ever!

I'm going out out out out out. Neh.

5 days till we collect our results, 16 days till i'm free from that monstrosity they call a school. It's bloody small.

I CAN'T WAIT.

I'll have 2 whole months to rot. That's the most exciting news since 893247238947 milliseconds ago. BLAAAA.

Shut up, all of you. Cows. Who? You've no idea? Me neither.

I hate intellectually disabled people. Suckers.

[edit] i wna learn how to make blogskins. then i can make pretty blogskins instead of having to waste my time searching for hours, sifting through crap skins of cartoon cows.

i wna buy stuff. just stuff. lots of 'em.

i wna type in small letters. yay.

i want i want i want.

what's today? oh, right, wednesday.

i'm bored.

i'm getting used to the drilling. it's like background music.

food

play mindless games.

i love my fingers. i hope YOU have fucking fat fingers. and then you'll never be able to find a job that requires you to type stuff 'cause then your boss would complain that you type too slowly cause your fingers are too fucking fat. HA.

What's wrong with anorexia anyway? Geez.

this isn't making sense is it? too bad, fatfuck.

now fuck off. [/edit]

KNN i have a fucking retarded neighbour who has been drilling for the past TWO hours!

Seriously, i have nothing against retards ok. It isn't even their fault in the first place. But WTF. This bastard drills for fun i tell you. Fucker!

He presses the lift button like 98538475 times and repeatedly checks his watch. Ok, whatever. Not his fault. I JUST HATE MY NEIGHBOURS.

AND I HAVE A LAO LIAN FOR A NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOUR! ^@#*&^*&

I seriously think they're using TWO drills upstairs. I hear multiple drills, chairs being knocked around things being dropped. I WISH THEY'D MOVE OUT.

No, i wish i can move out. I'll move to.. I DON'T KNOW!

I'm gna move to England. BYE.

EEYUCH.

Gross, my tagboard's been defaced by cowardly vandals with outlandish names. Totally spoils the look of the blog.

I FEEL LIKE SWITCHING BACK TO XANGA.

They have nice emoticons.

Finals are over. Geog was pretty ok, studied over the weekend. Yeah, studied. Didn't know how to do the last few questions though. Ended up writing crap and i don't dare to double check with the textbook. HECK.

*chants* xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga *chants*

What's there to do after exams?

I've built my life around studying and sleeping. One can get sick of sleeping after awhile too.

I KNOW. OMG. I'll throw away my stuff. Starting monday afternoon. It's gonna be "dump, dump, dump, dump, what's the point of keeping this? throw, dump, thrash, needa new trash bag, useless stuff."

SET.

I bear the weight, so you can be happy and prance around.

You abuse me, shoving me roughly, not caring even when i get slammed into walls.

You make use of me when you need me, toss me aside when you no longer have any uses for me.

What am i?

Ate at yoshi today. AM EXTREMELY SATISFIED. Though it's a little more expensive than what i remembered.

Learnt my lesson, shall eat students' meal next time. AHHHHHCHOOO!

I wish, i wish, i wish, i wish.

I don't know.

By the way, *psst* i think having a boyfriend at this age is a waste of time, money and resources. I don't know what resources, just decided to add it in. Seriously, it is a waste of time. SO! If any guy asks you to be his girlfriend, haha, reject him, ok?

If he's seriously serious, he'll wait till the both of you are more mature and stuffs, instead of now. I mean, what with the heavy workload, long school hours and other responsibilities you already have to shoulder, do you seriously think you have time for a partner?

"I can manage my time well.. My boyfriend/girlfriend can help me with my problems.." blablabla. Shut up about that already. Did you consider that if you are having problems with your relationship, you will not be able to juggle your other responsibilities well?

If you already survived ten odd years without a stead, i don't see why you can't make it thru the next few.

And if you think this is sour grapes, you can jolly well think again. And again. And again. And again. 'Cause i think you are so fucking dumb, you need to go through the thought process zillions of times before you can form a proper opinon. (: it's ok love, it's ok to be dumb.

By the way, the what am i question? I'll tell you the answer.

I. Am. A. Trolley! (:

So, english exams are tomorrow.

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow

TOFUCKINGMORROW!

Why do i not feel nervous? Why am i not panicking?

OMG this is seriously bad, like, damn.

HELLO?! It's the final paper!

FINALS
FINALS
FINALS
FINALS
FINALS
FINALS
FINALS!

Just looking at that word makes me feel sick. Finals.

Sheesh.

I'm gg off to do chinese.

My aunt just came back from HK and there's presents!

Upload pictures tomorrow. Super lazy now. Need to go do some random math paper.

OH YA. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm happy. *smiles damn gleefully*

i'm sorry it has to be this way

I thought 3 was a crowd? What about seven? Go figure.

Guys from St. Andrews are so attention-seeking. They sing weird songs too. Like, "7 cedars sitting on the bus. 2 cedars getting down. now 5 blue cedars sitting on the bus"

It's so damn funny you can't help but to laugh.

The worse thing is they were sitting in the back row and i was sitting right in front of them. They wanted to pull my hair. OMG i was damn scared. They're rather stupid actually. If you wna pull a person's hair, you don't go, "eh, pull the hair", "you pull lah!", "haha, don't want la." (DAMN LOUDLY)

Crazy.

There was this stupid fat bus uncle in 812. He kept pressing his ass against my elbow. I felt so bloody fucking violated. Like, what if he's getting some perverse pleasure out of someone's elbow touching his behind, HUH?

Nehnehpok. So fat still want to squeeze into a small little hole. I WAS LEFT WITH A SPACE OF ABOUT 30cm BY 30cm!

Today was a cold and boring day.

Damn! I saw this OMG fucking gorgeous corset at Forever21.

Guess what? They didn't have my size! S was too small, couldn't buckle at the chest and rib area. L was too large, could slip two hands in.

And where is M? Residing in someone elses wardrobe! ):

This is so so unfair. The salesperson said the corset's been in for about three weeks already. I didn't have piano last week, so didn't go to orchard.

The week before, i didn't go to Forever21!

AHHHHH. This is so not fair. Why am i not thinner or fatter so i can fit into one of the sizes?! ): Irritating irritating pigs who bought the corset. Gah.

It's so WOW, ok! It's a midnight blue corset with spaghetti straps and vertical lines running down the sides and front. And the typical xxxxx kind of ribbons going down the back.

If i see anyone on the streets wearing that corset, i'll take my penknife out and slash her corset till it's a mere shadow of what it was previously.

I'm craving for something, yet i can't put my finger on it. Am i supposed to eat everything till i satisfy my craving?!

OMG

That would be terrible. It's like eating down a shopping mall.

Sushi? No.

Ice-cream? No.

Salad? No.

Chocolate? No.

Bubbletea? No.

OMG I SUDDENLY REALISED! I want instant noodles!

Just want something damn hot. Like, so hot it can scald your tongue. And something spicy. Yumyum :D

There's nothing to eat at all. Nothing! NOTHING! NOTHING!!

Damn.

I still want to run.

instantnoodlesinstantnoodlesinstantnoodlesinstantnoodlesinstantnoodlesinstantnoodles!

Going for tuition soon. Hopefully someone will squabble with me. I like. So fun, especially if you win. Then you can give the person a triumphant look and flounce off. Ha!

BORRRING.

Uneventful uneventful uneventful day.

Oh, had geog test. Like, woah. The ending part was so terribly messy, doubt Mrs. Loh can even read it. Her eyesight should be quite poor, ya?

Just remembered that my uncle once asked me to take up wakeboarding. Haha, damn cool. But i haven't got the moolah. Oh well.

It bloody rained again today. Dang. There goes my run. AND OMG SIYING HAS A JACK RUSSELL!

Shit unfair.

15 days to exams.

and you wonder why

Thanks (: QiXuan and Eunice.

Went running! Ran like halfway and couldn't go on due to blisters. Drat. How annoying.

Mrs Tan was being damn scary today. It's like, 17 days to exams. Or is it, 17 days to the end of exams? What am i doing, blogging?!

I should be studying. Yeah. Like, now. Damnshitlazy.

BLOODAYE HELL!

Ok, dinner, shower, study. In whatever order i don't care.

TOODLES!

i just love muscle aches

Thanks (: QiXuan and Eunice.

Went running! Ran like halfway and couldn't go on due to blisters. Drat. How annoying.

Mrs Tan was being damn scary today. It's like, 17 days to exams. Or is it, 17 days to the end of exams? What am i doing, blogging?!

I should be studying. Yeah. Like, now. Damnshitlazy.

BLOODAYE HELL!

Ok, dinner, shower, study. In whatever order i don't care.

TOODLES!

i just love muscle aches

When you're in a bad mood, don't read blogs. Everything seems to be directed at you.

If you're here thinking you'll get to read a cheery and happy my-life-is-wonderful post, it'll do you good to get out now. Yeah.

OMFG

I don't think i can even blog properly, knowing that people will read this.

Fuck, let's just keep this inside. Bottle it up. Yeah. (:

Have you ever felt that the whole world is dead and you're the only survivor? I felt it just now. On my way home. Maybe it was the surroundings.

The rain had just ended and it was pretty chilly out. Maybe it was because i was carrying a 9023498kg load bag and that made me feel sad. Maybe it was because of the wind. The wet ground. The fact that the playground was empty.

I think it was because my beautiful sunshine had gone to hide herself up. Come back soon, ok? I miss you.

It felt so tranquil. So peaceful. To the extent that it was scary. I was actually afraid to take the stairs because i was afraid i would never get out of there. It just felt so, scary. Seeing that stairway leading upwards, that was familiar to me. Not hearing the boisterous shouts of the oh-my-god-i-am-damn-cool basketballers wasn't.

Even when i saw people around me, i felt like they weren't actually there. I was hoping fervently for a noisy little kid to pop out of no where so that i would be cheered up. Or a kitten (:

Do you ever feel that, the thinner you get, the fatter you feel? Cause i felt like onefatfuck just now but when i got home and looked into the mirror, i saw that all was fine. I think it's the okonomiyaki. However it's spelt.

It's basically flour and eggs. Gross, i know. Tastes good though. With the sauces and what have you.

Qixuan told me that most of the time, anorexia doesn't happen on purpose. People out there who own blogs or xangas to write about what they ate, how fat they feel and how they wish they were thinner and stuff, i don't think they really are anorexic. You think it's damn cool to be anorexic? It isn't, ok? So stop it.

Anyway, she said that it usually starts out as an innocent skipping of meals. Like, your mom didn't cook and you're lazy to eat, so you don't. Then when you skip more meals, you kind of don't like eating and stuff. I can't remember her exact words but i know there was a part about not wanting to eat and not having the appetite even when you're hungry. Wanting to vomit when you see food.

I think i'm so dead.

Do you ever feel like vomiting after eating? Not on purpose. Just, you feel disgusted by the thought of what you have just eaten and you desperately want to get it out of your system. I do.

Do you feel happy when you don't eat? I do.

Do you feel like a fatfuck when you do eat? I do.

Do you not like eating because you think it destroys your record of not eating? I do.

Do you, do you, do you? I wouldn't know.

I spent eight hours in macs today, studying!

Ryan just called me a nerd. Thanks ah ryan! You hurt my tender nerdy heart! ): and he thinks i'm a boy. Like, SEXY.

You people kind of don't have to bother reading this again till after the exams. Cause i'm a no life nerd. Tomorrow i'm going to bishan library to study. I KNOW! HARDWORKING! LIKE, DAMN.

I take that back. Please read this, ya?

Someone buy me damn geeky glasses please? I will wear them and tie my hair into a weird ponytail and wear funny clothes and study damn hard. And you can pop by the library to laugh at me! :D

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE OK?

And i think you guys should love me too, because i am not a closet mugger. I post up my mugging plans for everyone to see so they can panic and start mugging too. 'Cause i love you guys so you should mug then we can go have fun after the fucking lovely exams!

LOVELOVE, DIONNE

I fear closet muggers.

To a certain someone who doesn't read this: Stop calling me when you're feeling down or depressed, ok? I am not being cold-hearted. I just feel that you are only making use of me to solve your problems.

You don't even talk to me normally. It doesn't mean that because i solved your problems once, i will do it again. Heck, i didn't even know what i was talking about. Just spouting some counsellor-type of rubbish in the hope that i could make you feel better.

Stop calling me and telling me, "i'm depressed", "i'm drinking", "i cut myself last night", "i've problems with my stead", "i want to die". Stop acting noble and shit and asking me, "are you busy? if you are i won't trouble you". STOP IT, OK?

I am not a paid counsellor. I am not your diary. Do not use me to pour out your woes.

I wouldn't mind if you were a good friend of mine. But who are you to me? Just my primary school friend's ex-boyfriend! We've never even met before, alright?

I've had enough of your frequent calls. Don't call me anymore. I FUCKING AM NOT INTERESTED!

Love, Dionne (:

(this only applies to one person)

FUCK THE WORLD

Fuck school, fuck homework, fuck studies, fuck closet muggers, fuck it.

Dear God, please help me. I pray that i can be a nerd who loves homework wholeheartedly and squeals with excitement at the thought of exams. I pray that i can be a cheena person who loves chinese homework such as ban yue ji, pray that i can enjoy school because I CAN LEARN EXCITING AND ENRICHING THINGS! Thank you Lord. (:

LOVE, DIONNE.

hello, i'm dionne's guest blogger of the day!

aren't you excited? yeah, i'm not as interesting as dionne here, who smells hats and then tell people it smells... hatty. woah.

okay, so today we went "studying". righttt. some fat ass moron abdullotif went to spoil my day. the stupid guy rang me up and then i screamed 'WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT' into the phone and i had those stupid arhhbEnngx` laughing at me.

whatever okay? at least i don't stoop so low to smoking marlboros, taking fugly twiiitiishx pictures in bad lighting to hide my fugliness, and then fight with people thinking i am damn garang and courageous when actually, i am a big fat ass coward.

oh ya, fishballs are so fun to watch. they go boing boing boing down the stairs. hahahaha. roll into a ball and flick it.

whatever that means.

ok i had enough of blogging already.

OH PEOPLE I'M GOING TO OPEN A BAND BLOG USING DIONNE'S ACCOUNT.

IF YOU WANNA ACCESS, ASK DIONNE/JOLYN FOR PASSWORD =)



jolynn washh herre tuudaexx`
-dumpliingx lurbbezxz mo0nniex

Why do people think i'm weird when i say i like to know what people smell like?!

Don't you like knowing? When you are talking to people online, don't you want an image in your mind?! And isn't it better if you know what they're wearing and what they smell like so you can picture them?

Otherwise it's like talking to the laptop. That's such a waste of my time i might as well go talk to the wall. It's the same every holiday you know. I spend so much time alone at home, i get sick of home.

See, i don't like talking to people online and meeting them after that. It's like, i already have an impression of the person, and when i meet them for the first time, i have to adjust that impression and it's rather annoying.

What if i initially liked the person then decided i dislike him/her after meeting them?

I am not a superficial bitch ok. I mean, sometimes you just never expected the person to stink so much, or to sound so gross, or to be so weird.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

Like, when i'm talking to my friends online and they make some kuku comment, i can picture their kuku expression to go along with that comment. I can picture them laughing. ISN'T THAT BETTER?

So, next time if i tell you, "smell yourself. what do you smell like?", please just do it to satisfy my curiousity. It feels so weird to be talking to some blank, smellless, emotionless, lookless, soundless.. THING.

LOVE, DIONNE.

Was i an uber cute child or what? Oh man, i think i was and still am damn cute. Call me egoistic, i don't really care, you know.

Ok i was somewhat silly. Started walking at 11 months and instead of learning it slowly, like, crawling, walking a few steps and stopping, my mom said i stood right up and started walking. Problem was, i didn't know how to stop. So i kept walking damn fast and walked straight into a wall and promptly stopped walking and started crying.

And the baby walker, i loved playing with that. So there was a balcony in our house and i was playing with the walker. The obvious thing that will happen next is that i fall over the ledge. And, duh, it happened.

Oh and i insisted tomato was matoto. A typical conversation between me and my mom would be something like this:

Dionne: See, matoto.
Mom: No, it's to-ma-to.
Dionne: Ma-to-to
Mom: TO-MA-TO
Dionne: Matoto matoto matoto!

Guess who won? Me, duh.

Love, Dionne

HEY!

So, i sold tulips today, for tulip hearts day 2006. The tee shirt is extremely cute! And before you start saying, "i bet you only sold like, 3", I SOLD ONE HUNDRED AND ELEVEN TULIPS! At least ten people refused to take the tulips from me ok, so it should be a hundred and twenty-one! That's like, $142.

Dionne raised $42 for the Children's Cancer Foundation. YAY. Did you? NO!

This guy bought $50 worth of tulips from me! That's like, 25. So i approached this bunch of people, and they told me they already bought tulips at kallang. Then one of them told me to ask the guy who donated $50 previously.

Went up to him and did the stupid would you like to donate talk and started going, "please please please, please? please la, please please.." and his friends were like, "small girl, give lah"

SO I GOT FIFTY DOLLARS!

Whoopee.

What i realised is that the people you expect to donate, the people who are dressed very very nicely, they don't donate. The people you don't really expect to donate, they do. This just goes to show that you shouldn't judge people by the way they look.

So anyway, i wanted to say something but forgot about it totally cause i got distracted by this. Cedar's uniform is leading by about 400 votes currently. We're being voted for the coolest uniform!

That's like, so cool. Ahahaha.

SO! VOTE OK!

I love you all and please buy tulips from me. i bought some extra home. People who were supposed to go support me and didn't, i'll make you buy. YAY.

I'M SORRY

I'm damn sorry i was an asshole, ok? But hey, nobody can do without an asshole.

Then again, i guess at this point of time, an asshole is pretty redundant, isn't it?

I'm talking nonsense! I'm damn sorry ok? SORRY I SUCK LAH.

We're going jamming tomorrow and i'm damn scared i'll feel damn left out. It's quite stupid to broadcast my feelings out here, isn't it? But not many people read this anyway, so by the time it's read i'll probably feel much better already.

I'm going to bring my imaginary friend, Travis, along.

He'll entertain me.

There's 3 more weeks to exams. I should mug. And then i'll reward myself well. Like, damn well. That's only if i get good grades though. If i get F9s, i should be banished to the toilet to scrub toiletbowls for eternity. And at the same time, some fat sumo will be sitting on me. Is that bad enough a punishment for a disgusting person like ME?!

Went to Jolyn's primary school today. HUA MIEN PRIMARY. Why is it Hua Mien? I thought it's Hua Min? Ok whatever. I think her friend is cute. SHUT UP DIONNE.

I'm on an emotional rollercoaster.

It's going up. Down. Up. Down. Up. DOWN DOWN DOWN. What if it never goes up again?

Someone please help me. Stop the bloody thing and let me get off! I'd much rather be in a hot air balloon where i'll always be up and free to go where the wind brings me. I'd be much happier.

THIS IS MAKING NO SENSE. NOBODY READS ANYWAY, SO FINE!

I never knew how important he was to me, until he passed away.

I think it's my fault. I didn't spend enough time with him. I should have washed his cage 45 times a day to make sure there wasn't any germs in it.

I should have forced him to eat 25 million vitamin pills a week so that he would be healthy and strong.

I should have changed the water in his waterbottle more so that he has super fresh and sparkling water everyday.

I should have given him more fruits and vegetables so that he would have lots of fibre and he could shit more so he wouldn't have indigestion.

I should have forced him to bathe more so he would be cleaner and when he is cleaner and nicer smelling, he would be happier.

LEO'S DEAD.

and it's my fault.

I'M EXHAUSTED!

Went out with Paul Twohill




Sexy, right? Even sexier in real life. Come find me tomorrow in the 2M classroom! I'll sign autographs xD Nah, that's me. Like, duh.



Yay, real Dionne! Heh. Was supposed to be doing homework but ended up playing with Ying'er's phone. The game's real fun okay!

Went running around Orchard at like, 3.30? When i say run, i really mean RUN. Ying Ying's much taller than me which means her legs are longer. Therefore, i have to run to keep up with her. We were totally lost. Such losers, right?!

I go to orchard every weekend and so does she but we still got lost. The only place i know well is the Takashimaya area and the Specialist mall area. Oh, and DFS and Far East. I guess it's cause i usually follow my mom around blindly, so i don't remember how to get to where i want to get to. Heh.

Oh, damn. Need to go shower. Ahhh, i stink anyway, running around in long sleeves. BLACK TOO!

Shall continue this tomorrow and go reply Ying Ying and go shower and.. heh heh heh.. SLEEP!

LOVELOVE

I've decided to leave my hair back long. Ever since i entered Cedar in 2005 my hair's been getting shorter and shorter and shorter!

I want a fringe. Don't like my current fringe which i sweep towards the side. What's the point then? I shall cut my fringe short x)

WHAT IF I LOOK TOOT AND CHEENA?! Oh man.

Can someone please reccomend me a good hairdresser who listens to my opinion for once?!

Oh wait, nobody ever reads this anyway. Hah. And even if they do, they show no indication of doing so.

Oh i saw super lots of nice shirts on Forever21's website but the stupid website didn't allow me to take the pictures! Like, mean.

QianYun's doing a blogskin for me! Haha, i always rely on the lovelies around me to do my blogskins. Heh. Badbadbad..

Have i said already that i'm looking forward to school in a sicko way? Yes, I am.

xD

The only thing i'm worried about is my homework. I still have tons. Totally wasted my homeworking mood yesterday.

I'm currently stucked onto english songs. Haha, it's been like this for years. I started out liking english songs, then i liked chinese. Then english. Chinese. Now it's back to english.

Weirdo. Much.

I know why people like living in their own fantasy worlds, without caring about what's going on around them. I know why. Don't you know why?

Try being isolated and friendless. Then you'll know why.

Number of times i went out with anybody from school this june hols: 2
Person: Nicole

Haha, not anybody from my class. Can't wait for 2007.

2 more terms. 100 schooling days. minus the public holidays, hopefully it's about ninety days. I can do ninety days man.

Oh i already have a plan for future holiday jobs. It's much better than working at Macs, Starbucks, Coffeebean, BK, bookstores, cd stores, what have you. My plan is so going to work I tell you.

I'm not gonna reveal what I have in mind. Heh, less competition then.

One day i'm going to leave Singapore. Yes. I will. Don't worry, i won't leave for good. I'm going to come back to mock you. (:

Ok. Seriously need to grow taller so that people will stop bullying me on the MRT. It's terrible how the aunties just pretend as though i'm not there and they push so hard till i get squeezed out of my spot and they're standing right where i was 2 seconds ago.

OIE! I paid MRT fare so i have a right to stand there! GO AWAY! stupid smelly shits. Should watch the way they snatch seats too. It's amusing and helps to pass time while on the ridiculously slow train. GRAH.

I think it has to do with my height and my face. The aunties don't seem to think i have a fierce face as compared to my peers, who always go like, "smile! why so fierce?". SHIT I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP TO BE AN AUNTIE!! I'M GONNA MIGRATE!

I wanna go back to dance. I shall persuade my mom that i'm capable of waking up at 11 and getting to dance class in time, at 1. Then rushing back at 2 for tuition which starts at 3.30. Yes yes yes, i can do it lah!

From now on i shall attempt to cut out my singlish. Please smack me if i use singlish. Or fine me ten cents. Oh wait, don't fine me. I'd rather be smacked than lose my entire allowance.

Thanks ah

like what, 9 days more till school reopens and i've only done less than 10% of my work?! gosh!

time to start working furiously. don't wna owe any more work this term, it's stressful.

everybody's trying to invade my privacy. oh phooey. go away already. can't you see i don't like it? grr..

ok, so i haven't been updating. heh, i'm sorry!

just super lazy alright?

rawr. one week of the holidays is gone! that's like, super fast. and i haven't even gone out. not a single day. oh man. so loser.

the funniest things about blogs is that when they're new, they're updated like, almost everyday. but as time wears on, the blogs only get updated when the people writing them are nagged to. haha. stupid lah.

i wonder why i bother with this. oh yeah, i forgot. i like seeing my words. eh, it's true!

oh yeah, my cousin's going for this 6mth guitar course thing and she brought her guitar home on saturday. i've been hogging it since then despite not knowing how to play the guitar. lol! just playing around with random tunes, figuring out random songs. so silly lah! i went to play the jewel in the palace song on the guitar xD

but it's kinda hurting to the fingers. will wearing plasters help? someone please tell me! fooling around on the guitar is rather addictive.

WHOOEEEYYYYY!!!

random highness. school's quite good for me actually. lazing around at home just builds up my craziness and i get high randomly. seriously! at least in school i can take out my excess energy on my partner or my friends or something. oh wait. friends? LOL. what friends? bah.

ahhhh. i'm losing contact with lots of people. think i'm gonna be some super sad loser lah. nevermind. who cares! i have my familyyyyyy x) they're great ok. seriously. haha, i wonder why some people can go like, "i hate my family! they suck!" blahblah.. learn to cherish them, man! at least your families are like, complete? i hope they are.

i've never even gotten a chance to meet my grandpapa ok! and like, my dad. i was far too young when my parents got divorced that my dad's like, totally wiped out from my memory. but i'm happy! i'm happy with my mom. lol, she's cool.

not many people can say they're moms are cool lah. AHHHH!!! I LOVE MY MOMMY! xD

typical conversation between us would be something like,

dionne: eh, that woman's shoes super ugly.
mom: yeah, her hair also
dionne: we're super bad. every weekend we laugh at people
mom: but really very ugly!

or

dionne: can you please stay hip? like, don't turn into an auntie ok
mom: OF COURSE! i can't imagine! i'd be super scared to be an auntie!

WAHAHAHA. i love!

this is like some post dedicated to my mom -.-" lol. okok, HOMEWORK TIME. i'm a good girl!

I've paid my dues

Time after time I've done my sentence

But committed no crime

And bad mistakesI've made a few

I've had my share of sand kicked in my face

But I've come through

We are the champions - my friends

And we'll keep on fighting - till the end

We are the champions

We are the champions

No time for losers

'Cause we are the champions - of the world

I've taken my bows

And my curtain calls

You brought me fame and fortune and everything that goes with it I thank you all

But it's been no bed of roses

No pleasure cruise

I consider it a challenge before the whole human race

And I ain't gonna lose

We are the champions - my friends

And we'll keep on fighting - till the end

We are the champions -We are the champions

No time for losers

'Cause we are the champions - of the world

I LOVE YOU CATS! I REALLY DO! I MISS EMPOWER U ALREADY! STAY MOTIVATED DARLINGS! WE'LL KEEP IN TOUCH!

post exam is damn boring. we had some funny james person coming in to talk about study skills. anyway, haha, he is super entertaining!

he just doesn't get annoyed, no matter what you say. i think ah, he's just acting lah. anyway, he showed us some uber funny vids. laughed until i wanted to die.

haha, have fun laughing!

i saw sabrina on the bus! oh and, before that, i saw a st nic's bitch. ok, she was walking towards the seat, then she saw 2 st nic's ppl and she rolled her eyes at them, so i am assuming that she is their senior, cause they made the unhappy face at her back. then she sat there in the OUTER seat being all bitchy and prissy and like, not moving in. SELFISH!

and after that when sab got down the bus, she bumped into the girl accidentally. and she rolled her eyes at sab too. like, sab is so freaking light please! she's SO small and skinny! it couldn't have hurt that much ok!

you think you're so high and mighty? you have no rights to be mean to sab ok, because you have fat calves. YUCKS. sab has the slimmest calves ever. grahhhh.. mean woman mean woman mean woman!

OH YES! i forgot to mention, i got my phone back! but the lousy pok repair people didn't repair my phone speakers!! ): i need to send it back! ):

i got like, c5 for chinese this year. please congratulate me. it's an improvement! last year was c6!

anyway, i have 3 As, 2 Bs and 3 Cs. so, yeah. that's all i remember. too busy watching macbeth and lazing all over the hall floor. it's freezing cold in there!

the TL henna woman screwed up me and jedi's hand. asshole. luckily we asked her to draw on the inside. i'll be hiding my palms for the next few weeks. looks like shit. smells like shit too.

gtg. bye loves! (:

cut my hair! a total of 6 people said i look more feminine with this hairstyle. haha, the truth is, i don't like it, at all. really. it sucks, alot.

i hate stubborn hair stylists! my hair is like, lopsided. i was telling the guy that it's longer on the left side, and he was like, no lah! where got! then he didn't wna cut anymore. asshole. now i have to live with the shit hairstyle, not him. oh wait, it's not even a hairstyle. it's just a haircut.

irritating shit. i feel like cutting again, but i'm afraid it'll do even more damage. and like, haircuts cost money!

GAH

my hair is lopsided!! ): i do not like it.

there was choir today and i was all ): about it the whole day. and turns out they just asked us to go so that we could vote for choir tee designs and also to check if our gowns need alteration. THEY SHOULD HAVE TOLD US! i had to waste time and space bringing that fugly thing. i could have just tried it on at home and told you that i needed no alterations whatsoever!

i'm irritated cause of my hair, ok. don't annoy me any further by saying, "eh, your hair ah, like shit". actually, that hasn't happened yet. a few people said they like it. haha, maybe i have weird taste. whatever.

nic baby, jem bruff you ok. i'm not kinky. he started it! really. make him check his chatlogs. anyway, haha, i shall put the jokes up here. if you have a tendency to go EEEEEE! at "dirty" jokes, stop reading.

why do guys fart louder?


because they have a microphone and two speakers between their legs! :D haha, funny? FUNNY?! i think it's damn funny!

okok, one more.

A China girl visiting New York went into a worldwide message center wanting to send an urgent important message to her mother in China. The Italian guy at the counter told her it would cost around US$100. She exclaimed, " I don't have that kind of money, but I will do anything to get a message to my mother in China!"

The Italian smiled, arched an eyebrow and asked, "Anything?" Yes, I promise.. anything! " she said. With that, the Italian said, " Follow me." He led her to the next room and said, "Come in and close the door". " Get down on your knees!" he ordered. She did. " Unzip me !" he said. She did. Then he said, " Go on.. take it out.

She did and grabbed it with both hands excitedly. The Italian closed his eyes and & whispered, " Go ahead girl, what are you waiting for?" Ms China girl slowly brought her lips closer and said loudly, "Hello....hello Ah Ma!!!..can you hear me?!"

HAHAHA!

OH YES! we're going concert on sunday! it's a bit last minute. like, they think we have no plans? but whatever, i shall buy the new tops i've been wanting. do you know what my mom said to me?!

*mom looking at me for a super long time*

dionne: what?! why are you looking at me?!
mom: oh, nothing. i think you should buy new clothes.

HAHA! i love my mom! she used to force me to go out, like, in the holidays. she was like, "not going out today? go out lah! don't always stay at home! now she makes me buy clothes. hahaha! GOODGOODGOOD. i shall go this saturday.

NICOLE, BABY! wna go shopping? :D

HELLO! i'm annoyed cause i have alot to blog about. and i still haven't shifted the sports day pics! nevermind, ignore them.

i have a sexy gay bestie! x) haha, went out with nic dear yesterday and i decided at swensen's that i wanted a gay bestie and he has to be hot(duh!), eurasian, nice, gay! oh and haha, being rich is a plus factor.

i found my lovely gay bestie at cine! he was at some restaurant and i saw him while going up the escalator. so i told nic baby and she was like, "he's chinese lah" then i said, "no! see! his hair! and his eyes! and his nose! and his mouth!" cause at this point of time i was too excited to talk in proper sentences already. anyway, whatever is here isn't very accurate cause i don't really remember what i talked yesterday. she wanted to take a photo but i didn't let her. NONONO! haha! that's wrong!

anyway, haha, thanks justin! you're the only one who thinks i'll ever see my gay bestie again! other people just go like, "haha, too bad. you'll never see him aain." ): pfft.

so anyway, we're going kbox tomorrow! haha, we are kbox virgins so we are going to devirginize our kbox selves tomorrow. but so far nobody else can make it! only me and nic baby. ): nobody wants to go out with us? i mean, like, HELLO?! it's US you know?! grr..

i think i shall put a password on my blog. but passwords on blogger are apparently lanpok and easy to hack. that's shit. but diaryland's hard to use and nobody's helping me with my stupid html shits. so i shall just go back to using blogspot.

anyway, please tell me if you wna go kbox tomorrow and i shall decide if you're nice enough to come. xD KIDDING LAH! PLEASE GO! MORE PEOPLE = MORE FUN!

oh and anyway, yingying, i decided not to get that wallet anymore. i thought it was white and gold but apparently, my memory failed me. it's black and gold. so! ahaha, tell lingyu and her mysterious present receiver not to worry.

lol, terribly sorry for changing blogs over and over again. now i shall run off to inform people of the new blog add.

anyway, i shall try to move the sports day post over here where the pictures can be resized to something resembling a normal picture instead of gigantic thingies. :)

Haha, hello! Ok, i know i'm terrible cause i keep changing. Never mind, don't really care.

I wanted it to be unfabulous.diaryland.com but that username was taken! ): so i changed it to unglamourous :D

What's the point of having two days off if you have to go back one of the days and do silly art photoshop crap? Damn irritating i tell you. And we went back one hour earlier for english during which i did nothing but prance around the classroom stealing sweets from ling yu and talking nonsense. Yes, i know i'm good.

So looking forward to holidays! One entire week of no school. Actually that's not true. I have to go back so many days too. CHEAT!

So many people went east coast today. I didn't even know my friends had plans to go there. Two friends actually. Oh well, since i wasn't invited i can't do anything. :D who cares? They're bimbos. It's too hard to be normal around bimbos. After 15 minutes with them your voice starts to go high-pitched and squealy too. Woah that's scary.

I should be in school right now but choir was CANCELLED! YAY! Haha, i love it when choir's cancelled! It means no running in choir tee and skirt(?!), no standing for hours on end, not having to worry that any second chye will ask us to sing one by one, not having to memorise scores, not having to smell smelly socky music room, not having to have sectionals. Haha! But choir's fun other than having to put up with these la.

Ok, it's getting rambly. Bah. Whatever.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME WITH THE HTML SHITTY THINGS! I CAN'T FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT A SINGLE HTML CODE! ):