Needs:
new waterbottle (I left my cute little waterbottle on the bus! ): and all because i was too busy remembering to bring stupid Eunice's file with me which is BLUE and ugly cause it's BLUE and a weird shade at that and i don't like BLUE and i've digressed bloody far.)
new slippers (The soles are broken like shit)
MP3 player (My last one died a year ago! Oh my god.)
new jacket (Japan jacket is way oversized! Ripcurl hoodie is hard to wear. ):)
new jeans (The bottoms are all frayed cause i step on them too much! Too bad luh, short ppl's jeans always drag on the floor. Ahahaha!)

Wants:
stripey polo tee
nice going-out shorts
new piano books
sexy pink/red camera!
new handbag

See? My needs override my wants! I'm not a spoilt brat, kay.
[edit: I realised they are the same. Five each. Oops.]

The worst thing is, they don't even overlap! Meaning I can't kill two birds with one stone. Also meaning, I'll have to spend even more money! >:( the thought of spending money makes me sad k. Cause after i spend my money, I'll have no more. Duh.

Can always ask my mom for more, but, naw. Don't have to. She gives it willingly. Still, I like spending my own money. As in, savings. You don't understand luh. I was blog hopping and I read this girl's blog which was so entertaining I tell you! Hahaha funny.

Choir tomorrow. I'm so going to die in th AS2 luh, dears.

Going out with Nicole tomorrow! I haven't gone out with her in ages. Maybe like 3 million years ago. I have no idea where we're going though. She's gonna bring me to some I don't know where place. I am a mountain tortoise. :D

We're gonna wear colorful sneakers to school tomorrow! Sexy, much.

Me = red
Nic = green && pink

Warao, we're gna have to hide them in the AS2 under our bags k! And i have no idea how i'm gna hide low cut black socks. Hello? Everyone's wearing white socks and i'm gna be wearing black? How ah? Do something drastic to my hair, then they'll all look at my head instead of my feet! I am a genius.

I always start out not knowing what to blog about then end up blogging a lot (at least that's what I think at that point in time) then after I publish I realise that I actually blogged damn little.

Ohoh! You know the nine o'clock show that woman? MeiYa I think. Oh my goodness she is damn gross. Scheming little bitch. I didn't watch initially but my mom watches so I just joined in the fun. Heh.

Pierre Png is disgusting. His face grosses me out. I don't know why. Eeeyur. I don't like him ok.

Blogskins is being a pig. It's refusing to load. Asshole. I don't make my own skins luh. You think I have so much time? Actually yes. I'd rather sleep. There's some stupid DU NAN advertisement on tevee now. So lame.

Jem's coming tomorrow too. He has O levels! Ahahahaa I'm so gna laugh my ass off at him, kay? Quite mean luh, but still. In two years it'll be my turn to be laughed at so I should just laugh all i want now. Heh!

I am damn tired of blogging. Shall go do something else that's more productive. Like shit.

Somebody from Australia has been reading my blog. Who're you? Or is there just something wrong with sitemeter? Ehhhh, who cares.

I slept fourteen hours today! How cool is that. Way.

Lol, i didn't even realise i was sick. Took me a day to connect the symptoms together and figure out i had flu.

I wna Seventeen subscription! Like, Seventeen Seventeen, not, local Seventeen. Get it? Yeah yeah yeah.

My mom refuses to get it cause she says it's costly. GRAH! >:( it's so much more interesting than the local one! Really expensive though. I only bought it a few times. Cost between five to seven dollars. SIGHHHH，why's there such a thing as shipping fees? If there wasn't, i could get clothes from Forever21 that's not found in the outlets here.

Pigs.

My mom refuses to tell me what she got for my birthday. That's another five days of suspense. HELLO?! I can't stand it!

Okok, patience is a virtue. WAITWAITWAITWAITWAIT!! *EXPLODES*

I'm just dying to find out!

I'm so bloody bored and there's 2 more months. So so so dead luh.

No wonder it looks weird, i've been typing in the html screen. SOMEBODAYE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO!

I'm dying for tuition to start, but i know i'll regret it once it starts and start dying again for tuition to end. Why does it have to be like THIS? Gross!

Seventeen subscription please? I'll read it till the pages are rotten, just to get your money's worth out of it.

Subscribe for me k? Birthday present. Christmas present. Halloween present! Awwww man.

I think i shall go buy myself a few fishies and stare at them for hours. Then promptly overfeed them. Hahahhaahaah.

Or i shall go learn cooking and make everyone LAOSAI. Cool manzxz.

Go barge into ppl's house and spend the whole day there irritating their parents and siblings and maids and dogs and cats and hamsters and fishies and ants and lizards. YAY!

I've just been told lame jokes. More please. Contribute to the lame jokes already swimming in my head. Eheheheheh.

It feels weird to breathe out. The air comes out hot. You wanna cook an egg? Come, put it in my mouth. Come back ten minutes later. I'll have a hard boiled egg all ready for you (:

Friday:
Went Fort Canning in the morning with YingYing. Lydia had track. And in the end she didn't turn up AGAIN. Frustrating, frustrating.

Spent a lot of time looking for saga seeds and didn't really find a lot. The nice nice uncle at the security booth or something said he'd keep them for me if he saw any while patrolling. I think he was super nice to me 'cause i wished him a nice day. So! Be nice to people, and they'll be nice back to you. Heh.

Then spent like, 2 hours, at Park Mall. Shopping? Naw, the shops there are way too posh for a poor student like me.

Was talking to an auntie and an uncle who had two stalls at the lift lobby. I don't even know them, okay. The uncle did magic tricks for me! Ahahaha, it was voluntary. I think he thinks i'm childish and will be easily amused, therefore he takes this opportunity to get an ego boost. No lah, can't be mean. He entertained me.

Went to Lydia's church, Evangel Family Church, in the evening for service. They talked about death and stuff like that. The video and drama was super touching and i teared up like 5 or 6 times. Hahaha, yeah, i'm that easily touched. I didn't notice anyone else crying! >:( heartless people.

Then the pastor (He didn't say his name. Or maybe i didn't catch it.) asked for people who wanted to accept Christ into their life and at first i was hesitating. Then i remembered what he said about people nowadays making their decisions on how the people around them would view them and how they would react. Basically, peer pressure, to some extent.

So i raised my hand. By that time i was like crying already luh. Then a counsellor brought me up to the front and stood me right in front of the pastor. Alamak. I was on the big screen thingie. Like, oh no, everyone's watching me cry. And this time it's not one or two tears. It's like, the floodgates were opened and the tears were gushing.

I rededicated my life.

(:

this seems like a good place to end, but i have to go on.

Saturday:
Woke up at like, 5 plus. Went to some walking thing. IT WAS SUPER CROWDED! Like, seriously, ok.

Not much comments lah, just, dunno. My cousins were there too and i got bullied, as per normal. They're like, four and eight. The four-year-old is SO STRONG. I really felt the impact when she pushed me. Owtch.

So it's true you shouldn't offend women. Hahahaha.

And i'm back home now. Blogging after sleeping for about, an hour. I'm down to the nitty gritty. Gosh.

Okok, going out again. Send my other cousin to guitar.

See ya! (:

[I really can't, really can't. I don't know why i feel so uncomfortable, but i just do. It's not you. It's me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say it. No guts.]

Walked home from QiXuan's house just now. Through Yishun park.

Oh yeah, i was almost knocked down by a fast-moving lorry, according to QX. I can't really see through my fringe now and also, i was looking in the wrong direction. Luckily she shouted at me, but, i crossed anyway. Eh.

So, slow walks through parks = self-questioning.

Yeah, was thinking about stuff. Like, what do i see in my future? Do i want to be a really successful business woman? A homemaker? Something really artsy that i love but have to eat grass to survive?

That's just the long term. I mean, i started out there. Then i went on to think about short term. Realised i couldn't even come up with anything, so i quit thinking about it. (or maybe i just don't want to tell any of you.)

Then i thought about how sometimes i'm so quick to judge people. I think i should stop that. 'Cause somehow, everyone has a story to tell. If everybody judges everybody else, there would never be any acceptance. So the next time i start going, "ew, loser" without even getting to know a person, please someone, just remind me, okay? (: thanks

What else did i think about? I thought about how i can take it when certain people touch me but when it comes to others, i just, can't. There's no reason. Just can't that's all.

I realised i'm not the only one either, so, at least i'm not as freaky as i thought.

I don't know what to do with my future. Why do some people have dreams, while others spend a lifetime wandering around, lost?

How come some people can say, "i've got a passion for *whatever*" ? Why can't others? Do they have some inbuilt sensor that i'm lacking?

Ok, enough of all this thinking. It's making me want to sleep. Sleeping is addictive. Like, the more i sleep, the more i need to. There's an overwhelming urge to just close my eyes and sleep. I wonder why.

When Somebody Loved Me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "i will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.

Lyrics from a song from Toy Story 2. It's super nice but like, real sad.

Played it on the piano. Was sight-reading so i had a chance to read the lyrics. Almost cried luh.

It's like, when you play you can seriously imagine a toy in a corner, abandoned. And a girl comes bursting into th room, like, all hip and shit. Ignoring the toy. Whatevr, just, really saaaad ):

OH YA! I cut my hair! It's quite short now. Aiyerrrr.

But the ends are wispy. YAY!

Damn, have to go back to school tomorrow. Boring. There's like, nothing to do in school! Grrrr.

Oh and i lost 2 earrings yesterday. And my 7-year-old necklace on saturday.

SHIT damn hope it's still somewhere around my room. Have to go look around later! >:( like, hello?! I'VE BEEN WEARING IT FOR SEVEN YEARS!! GAH!

About two years ago, i was going to leave my primary school. At that time i didn't know i was coming to Cedar.

Two years later, i'm going to leave 2M'06. At this point in time, i don't know which class i'll be joining.

See the similarities?

There's one more.

I don't miss my primary school and neither am i going to miss 2M much. Not because there were bad things that happened, or i found the class/school boring. More because i'm excited about what's happening next.

Maybe it's better this way. It'll help me make new friends more easily, yeah?

Whatever it is, i won't miss my class. I'll still see these people around the school. Hey, we have 2 more years together, albeit not in the same class. What's there to miss?

On a lighter note!

Watched Death Note with YingYing. Lydia was supposed to go, but couldn't make it in the end ): anyway, Death Note is super nice. Go watch it, ok?

And before you think the ending is crap, stay till the credits have finished rolling. Yep, just, stay (:

We're going fort canning on friday to pick saga seeds! Like, YAY! ^^

If you think it's dumb, you can just shut up. I love those things! Red and shiny. Woosh!

I HAVE SIX MARS BARS TO EAT. SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP!

Oh and PastaMania's servings are SUPER HUGE!

I ate at around 2plus, almost three. And i'm still pretty full, even now!

Eat Penne Cabonara. It's nice. Creamy with bacon. Yum! And some italian soda thing? Order passionfruit. Yep.

OH!!!!!!

I bought a new piano book! It's full of Disney songs. So, yeah, be jealous. Bye, babes! Eheeehehehe.

I don't even wna get involved man.

We watched Remember The Titans today. It's sooo inspirational! Like, teamwork and acceptance of others despite their differences and all.

I love. Shan't talk too much about it cause almost everyone watched. I like Sunshine! He's super funny. And Julius. Gerry, though he looks like an ape. The two fatasses.

Ahahahaha.

Learnt new song during choir today, ahh, super nice! Today's choir was super slack luh. Like, spent only a short while learning When You Believe, then after that lazed around doing chem holiday homework. Heh. I'm SO hardworking, i can't believe it too!

I'm gg to malaysia tomorrow! Like, for a full day. Ehehehe, at least there's gna be something to do other than laze around the whole day. I wna see fireflies.

So pretty. The only time i ever saw fireflies up close was when i was about 9, in the Night Safari.

I wna go to Fort Canning to pick the red seed thingies, i don't know what they're called. YingYing told me, but i forgot. Ooops, sorry!

I wna pick i wna pick i wna pick! >:( i want i want i want! GRRR!

Somebody better bring me. I DON'T CARE. SOMEBODY BRING ME GO PICK THOSE RED THINGS SOON!

Thanks whoever does. (: Zoo has also! Though not as much, suckers.

Here comes the excited bubbly feeling of anticipation again. I love that feeling. It makes me want to laugh. Feels so carefree. (:

Bye loves! (:

*THREE SMILIES!*

Picking up the pieces. You'll never get me down.

Ever since i got my first handphone at eleven, this is the first time my phone is getting confiscated.

Not like i never exceeded, but my mom's bf finally got too irritated by my constant exceeding, that from now on, for every dollar i exceed, my phone gets confiscated for a day. Gah, irritating!

I'm gna feel so disconnected from the world for so long. There won't be that familiar heaviness in my pocket, no pulling out of my phone to check the time, no flipping it open when i see bengs in the far distance so i can pretend to be busy and not meet their eyes. No more calling people easily, meaning i can't be easily contactable. Some people would jump for joy at this, it means more freedom. I get all the freedom i need and want though, what's the point?!

Gosh, i never knew how reliant i've become on a small piece of orange and white plastic. This should be pretty cool. Learning how to survive without a phone again. Will i have to resort to carrying ten cent coins and phone cards around? There aren't even much pay phones around anymore!

Phone's gna be confiscated for fifteen days, woo, sexy!

I'm gna start on chem homework! Haha, Nicole and i were being like, i wna do chem homework! just now. So gross right?

But! If we get it out of the way now, it means more time to do other stuff during the holidays! Ha.

I can't wait. Oooo. LOL!

Didja notice the new music player? You have gotta. It's humongous! I set the colors to pink and grey, like the skin, but apparently it didn't wna listen to me. I can edit it anytime, but, ah well, lazy.

I'm starting to like pink. I am a color flirt! and proud of it.

There can be miracles, when you believe.

I chose to take F&N instead of another another humanity!

Dumb or what? Who cares, it's the interest.

Yep (:

Rest of the results, as promised, so you can gloat. Ah well.

Eng: A2
Chi: B3
Hist: C6
Geog: B3
Math: A2
Science: B3
Lit: C6

I have two C6s for my humanities, how on earth am i supposed to take a humanity plus ss/humanity you tell me!? It's like, killing myself.

Why not take F&N instead and pull up my L1R5. Like, duh.

For snobbish people who are ready to go like, "Oh! F&N is only for people who can't study!" *smirk smirk*, think again, alright? Just, go do some reflection, yeah.

I'm getting all excited again. I don't know what about. Just, a little hyped up. Thinking of the new school year, new books, new supplies, new friends, new class. Taking F&N's cool in a way that you don't know what to expect cause we haven't really taken it in depth yet, so, *anticipation*.

Anyway, notice anything? Probably not.

I added a comments link! Yeah, so even if ppl spam nonsense, it won't show up on my blog. Having a tagboard makes your blog look ugly if it's spammed. A comment's link is different though. Having people spam it will just make it look like i've got lotsa comments. Ha, suckers.

Ooooooh F&N ahahahaha. I hope they let me in k. QiXuan thinks they'll call me up and ask me to reconsider. Blah, they should just go away. Seriously, i got myself so hyped up over F&N that i'm looking forward to it now and will be terribly disappointed if i don't get it.

I also don't want the class to be a full class of forty. Won't be so bonded lah, yeah.

Not looking forward to OAC. I kinda renewed my PASSION for choir yesterday. *chortles*

Not really, but still, i can honestly say i enjoyed choir yesterday. Was fun (:

Whatever, toodles!

Got back results today! Well, some.

It was like OMG terrifying. Was waiting damn shit anxiously kay. WOOSH!

Anyway, my chinese has improved! Ahahahahaha.

So like, my results are okay, better than i expected, other than history.

Eng: 88.9
Chi: 68
Hist: 52.5!

Hahahaha, 52.5. That's seriously scary alright. Who cares though, it's not like i'm taking history next year. No interest.

Blaaaablaaaa.

Lydia invited me t her church next friday and i'm gna see my pri sch friend again cause she invited her too. Long story, blabla.

Ahhhh i'm afraid to see what she's like now. I mean, the last time i saw her was about 6 months ago? And we didn't even talk.

Pretty sad, considering the fact that we were pretty damn close during our p5 and p6 year.

Anyway, whatever. Need t do stuff for my lil cousin.

I can't believe next friday is the last day of school! Like, ohmigosh, did my sec2 year just fly by? You've got to be kidding! Tell me you are! *i'm not*

DANG.

I'm gna be fourteen soon! Oooh scary. Heh. And soon i'll be forty-one. Ehehehe, old and wrinkly. This sounds so perverse.

Yingying says i intimidate people just by looking at them. Hah, that's crap. Who on earth has such a scary face? She seems t think i'm damn scary and intimidating and i can't remember the word she used. If you're reading this, please tell me what it is thru your blog or something. I'm anti-social.

I love my blogskin. I love shoes. I love love love.

I'm still feeling nervous abt seeing her next friday. She didn't even go back to school during teachers' day. We called her and msged her but she refused our calls. Ah, well.

Whatevr, gtg. Don't take care of yourselves too much. LIVE!

Diets. Diets make me feel in control and it's been too damn long.

Good. Hey, go calculate your BMI. It'll probably make you recoil in fear. "WHAT?! I'M THAT FAT?!"

Hahahaha, yeah, you are.

I like hot girls. Do you? Yeah, everybody does. I like bimbos. I like hot bimbos.

DVD/VCD marathon. I've never figured out which is which even up till now. One day when they come up with like, ACD, GCD, KCD and all that shit, i'll be even more confused.

I luuuurrrrvvvvve movies. Not the whole spending part though, that's why renting's GOOD! I just googled my name and guess what was the no.1 result?! Nicole's blog! Sexy, i like.

Why do people assume i'm a guy when they look at my name? Faggots. Do i assume you're a girl just cause your name's Noel or something? Or like, Joey? Aren't they rather feminine too?

OMFG i have to get rid of my pretty green nails tonight! SHIT I TOTALLY FORGOT. That sucks big time. I love my apple green nails. OH WAIT TOMORROW IS SUNDAY WTF.

I only remembered when my mom told me. Haha, loserrrr.

I get to keep my pretty nails for another day.

Am scheduled for a haircut and a facial. Yes! A FRIKKIN FACIAL. Like, omggggggggg. My mom's bringing me to something.. Somethingsomething, i don't remember what. I hope they don't wreck my face.

Recently discovered that my complexion functions 9842390 times better without any pimple cream whatsoever.

I wna work at a manicure place! I love nail polishes.

I wna work at Dashing Diva >:( i really really wna work there but i'm afraid i'll have to touch rough calloused feet that stink real bad. What'd i do then?!

I'd take up a job at Forever21 too. Topshop? THE PET STORE! I dont' mind any. But apparel's the best. Heh, cause then there'd always be lots of customers to keep me entertained and busy.

Did you know that Dashing Diva in Upper East Side, NYC has male manicurists? Sexy much. They wear cute pink polos. Hahahaahahaa.

This is turning out to be a long post. Rather bimbotic too. Who cares. Say it loud and proud. "I'M A BIMBO AND PROUD OF IT". Only bimbos are good-looking, no?

Did you know my class is lacking in girlie girls and i'm so dying in there?

Pleasepleaseplease God, let my class next year have girlie girls. What are girlie girls? Naaaah, you don't have to know. It's between me and God.

Bloody amazing.

I've trained myself to sleep with piling and drilling going on. Can you? I bet you'd just get up and start whining that the fuckers upstairs are disturbing your sleep.

It's not that loud actually. Maybe my hearing is just ruined.

Friday the 13th. Lol, i hope you get run over by a huge lorry. Wait, i take that back, what if you do.

What's up with blogger's word verification shit? Who cares, ignore.

Xiaxue has the prettiest camera and laptop ever!

I'm going out out out out out. Neh.

5 days till we collect our results, 16 days till i'm free from that monstrosity they call a school. It's bloody small.

I CAN'T WAIT.

I'll have 2 whole months to rot. That's the most exciting news since 893247238947 milliseconds ago. BLAAAA.

Shut up, all of you. Cows. Who? You've no idea? Me neither.

I hate intellectually disabled people. Suckers.

[edit] i wna learn how to make blogskins. then i can make pretty blogskins instead of having to waste my time searching for hours, sifting through crap skins of cartoon cows.

i wna buy stuff. just stuff. lots of 'em.

i wna type in small letters. yay.

i want i want i want.

what's today? oh, right, wednesday.

i'm bored.

i'm getting used to the drilling. it's like background music.

food

play mindless games.

i love my fingers. i hope YOU have fucking fat fingers. and then you'll never be able to find a job that requires you to type stuff 'cause then your boss would complain that you type too slowly cause your fingers are too fucking fat. HA.

What's wrong with anorexia anyway? Geez.

this isn't making sense is it? too bad, fatfuck.

now fuck off. [/edit]

KNN i have a fucking retarded neighbour who has been drilling for the past TWO hours!

Seriously, i have nothing against retards ok. It isn't even their fault in the first place. But WTF. This bastard drills for fun i tell you. Fucker!

He presses the lift button like 98538475 times and repeatedly checks his watch. Ok, whatever. Not his fault. I JUST HATE MY NEIGHBOURS.

AND I HAVE A LAO LIAN FOR A NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOUR! ^@#*&^*&

I seriously think they're using TWO drills upstairs. I hear multiple drills, chairs being knocked around things being dropped. I WISH THEY'D MOVE OUT.

No, i wish i can move out. I'll move to.. I DON'T KNOW!

I'm gna move to England. BYE.

EEYUCH.

Gross, my tagboard's been defaced by cowardly vandals with outlandish names. Totally spoils the look of the blog.

I FEEL LIKE SWITCHING BACK TO XANGA.

They have nice emoticons.

Finals are over. Geog was pretty ok, studied over the weekend. Yeah, studied. Didn't know how to do the last few questions though. Ended up writing crap and i don't dare to double check with the textbook. HECK.

*chants* xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga xanga *chants*

What's there to do after exams?

I've built my life around studying and sleeping. One can get sick of sleeping after awhile too.

I KNOW. OMG. I'll throw away my stuff. Starting monday afternoon. It's gonna be "dump, dump, dump, dump, what's the point of keeping this? throw, dump, thrash, needa new trash bag, useless stuff."

SET.

I bear the weight, so you can be happy and prance around.

You abuse me, shoving me roughly, not caring even when i get slammed into walls.

You make use of me when you need me, toss me aside when you no longer have any uses for me.

What am i?

Ate at yoshi today. AM EXTREMELY SATISFIED. Though it's a little more expensive than what i remembered.

Learnt my lesson, shall eat students' meal next time. AHHHHHCHOOO!

I wish, i wish, i wish, i wish.

I don't know.

By the way, *psst* i think having a boyfriend at this age is a waste of time, money and resources. I don't know what resources, just decided to add it in. Seriously, it is a waste of time. SO! If any guy asks you to be his girlfriend, haha, reject him, ok?

If he's seriously serious, he'll wait till the both of you are more mature and stuffs, instead of now. I mean, what with the heavy workload, long school hours and other responsibilities you already have to shoulder, do you seriously think you have time for a partner?

"I can manage my time well.. My boyfriend/girlfriend can help me with my problems.." blablabla. Shut up about that already. Did you consider that if you are having problems with your relationship, you will not be able to juggle your other responsibilities well?

If you already survived ten odd years without a stead, i don't see why you can't make it thru the next few.

And if you think this is sour grapes, you can jolly well think again. And again. And again. And again. 'Cause i think you are so fucking dumb, you need to go through the thought process zillions of times before you can form a proper opinon. (: it's ok love, it's ok to be dumb.

By the way, the what am i question? I'll tell you the answer.

I. Am. A. Trolley! (: