If this world makes you crazy

And you've taken all you can bear

You call me up

Because you know i'll be there

I used to look forward to fridays on thurdays. Now i look forward to fridays on mondays. Maybe even on sunday nights.

My brain seems to have shut down rather permanently. My notes and worksheets are in a perpetual state of disarray. Same goes for my hair.

I LOST MY TASK ANALYSIS! I'm so freaking dead, R&D is due on thursday, now's tuesday night. If i start tomorrow night (AFTER I'VE FOUND MY TA) i'll probably sleep at 5.

Coursework is killing me like omg. I want to have 97 hours in a day.

I'm grateful to be in 3p. Even though we look like a bunch of noisy little kids to people who don't belong to 3p, we're more than that. I love that i can go sit next to any person and talk to them without feeling discomfort. I love that there are no cliques (no obvious ones at least) in 3p.

I love that the class is so encouraging towards each other, love that despite how noisy we are at times, we can sit down quietly and discuss serious issues (like people saying 3p is the lousiest and saying she said it SUBCONSCIOUSLY. Subconsciously is worse than consciously, okay, loser)

I love that we get excited over things like tissue paper game and setting boats on fire and making mdm faridah FLY! Omg i'm laughing just thinking about it.

I'm really and truly falling in love with 3p and i don't want anything to change that (: if only i could say the same about math.

I love Mrs Woo forever. She's so concerned about 3p, i could just cry. Seriously, i was damn touched in the com lab okay.

If she's not our form teacher next year i'm going to die. I'll just fling myself down from the fourth floor in an ungraceful manner. Too bad it wouldn't be in cedar. Yucks, i don't want to go to old vs compound to study! NO AIR CONNED HALL, HOW APPALLING! >:(

So i shall be a good little girl and listen to her and start by sweeping the floor! I'll be the banisher of stray little leaves that creep into our classroom. Too bad my duty's over already (HAHAHAH YAY).

I have a ginormous stack of math homework to complete and i seriously do not know where to start. I shall do them in foolscaps cause i seriously hate the exercise book system. Like, loathe. It's so freaking confusing and leaves no room for mistakes cause else there'd be seriously ugly liquid paper marks and i'm rather anal about how my notebooks/exercise books look like. I just tear pages unforgivingly.

THEN HOW. My book would be soulless by the end of the year if that keeps happening. I hate file checks.

And i wna go Changi Airport tomorrow! ARGH.

Omg it's sunday, i'm going back to school tomorrow with a geog test first thing in the morning and i haven't even flipped open my book a single time. So prepared to fail. One week's too freaking short okay. ARGH.

See, qixuan, i'm blogging. Do you think NNP's reading this? I hope not, it's weird. Maybe i'll see NNP tmr. Oh the testimonial you wrote for me disappeared before i could approve it! ): i'm very annoyed with friendster. Waiting for it to reappear. If it doesn't you must write me a new one, i demand, like eileen.

And yes, i heart you eileen! (: (:

Okay, i'm gna do ban yue ji. Or, try to.

Hahaha my mother is damn hilarious. She sat with me at the dinner table eating expired sorbet and we laughed more than i laughed in the entire day.

"this oil so oily one"
"take out the ice and eat the cream" - referring to the iced over, expired sorbet.

Omgzxzxz i'm damn irritated cos today's already tuesday. Wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, MONDAY!

Five days more, five tests (i think) and yet i haven't started studying yet! Instead, i'm running off to Spotlight tomorrow after choir camp. At least it ends at 4 and not like 5.30 (:

I shall get my butt off the com and go do some nonsense. (:

OH NOOOOO! My sidebar is no longer aligned left and i have no time now to go tinker with those small little wordings.

I like this song (: and the video that goes along with it even more.

It plays only once so people won't start getting annoyed.

I FINISHED MY CHEM AND BIO HOMEWORK TODAY! :D YAY!

Okay there's something very very important i need to say. A dear friend of mine lost something extremely cherished. HAHA okay not funny.

Yeah okay athirah lost her ******** **** at bishan! Yes and we waited outside the toilet cubicle for damn long cause some woman inside was probably constipated and when she came out, no ******** ****! ): so we retraced our footsteps and looked really hard. Still, no ******** **** ): ah well.

Athirah, it's okay! (: as long as ******** ****'s in your heart, it's impossible to lose her it! (:

I decided to keep a paper journal AS WELL AS a blog cause if one day everything here goes missing, i shall be rather upset. So i'm going to scout for lovely notebooks that hopefully will be so lovely i won't abandon them (:

It's funny to see how people from your primary school have changed. And how some haven't changed a single bit.

Why are the teachers so biased against 3P? Just that we're and F&N/Art class doesn't imply that we're dumb, okay. Stop being mean to us >:(

ATHIRAH! (: thanks, i shan't let her affect my mood anymore. Just that it's kind of hard when it's first period and barely three minutes into the lesson, i get scolded for some rubbish that's ridiculous. Three whole years with her, it's crazy. I spent my formative teenage years growing up with that woman. Gah!

Today was a super sad day. Felt really frustrated by i don't know what either! I'm not the only one, hannah feels the same way. Seeeee, you guys really shouldn't be mean to threePP, really shouldn't.

Math tuition was a success! (: my teacher took three minutes to explain what was previously explained using a period and a half. Super shocking. I <3 tuitions you know. It's like, friends from many different schools plus i get to laugh at ridiculous stories and get to tell ridiculous stories also.

I'm gg new chem tuition tmr omgggg i scared. Nevermind! I shall cheer myself up and if everyone in the tuition thinks i'm weird or ignores me when i talk to them, then i'll talk to the dinosaur. Nobody was scared of it during tuition ): poor dino.

Why are they so close? ):

And i've decided not to be sad about my field cooking burn scar and treat it as my lifelong keepsake from OAC '07! (:

One super super important thing i've learnt from OAC! Being optimistic and cheerful helps a lot. If you hate camps and are like damn unhappy all the time, your OAC experience would probably stink like hell.

That's why i decided not to feel sad about my field cooking scar though it spoils the look of my unscarred hand (:

Is it too late to make resolutions? I don't remember making any.

One!) Get an A1 for chem
Two!) Grow taller
Three!) Don't be mean to weird people
Four!) Have more patience with juniors
Five!) Spend more quality time with my piano (SHE HAS A NAME, I'M NOT TELLING YOU WHAT IT IS, AND NOT IT IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK, IT STARTS WITH AN S!)
Six!) Don't go back to sleep in the morning after washing up
Seven!) Learn the jia1 chuan2 mi4 fang1 (s)
Eight!) Treasure the time left with the sec4s ):
Nine!) Don't be mean to eunice so much
Ten!) Sing a happy song everyday to myself
Eleven!) Paint my room sunshine yellow
Twelve!) Cut down time on laptop
Thirteen!) Do ZIPLINE ):
Fourteen!) Have a 3p outing
Fifteen!) Care less about suspicious stares and be unglam anyway
Sixteen!) Do something about the state my room is in!
Seventeen!) Ikea-ing
Eighteen!) Go to musicals that make me happy
Nineteen!) Don't make teachers' lives difficult
TWENTY!) I WANNA TURN FIFTEEN THIS YEAR (:

That last resolution was just to make sure i get at least one thing done this year. Ha!

I'm going to watch my police show now. Last four episodes! Omg.

Oh and i have to remind myself to study very very hard for my chem test, cos Mrs Kwek promised me a sticker if i get an A!

Which is going to be super difficult considering i got 7/25 for my first test. Haha, damn pathetic, i laugh at myself. It was atomic structure which is like, the easiest!

And the next test is mole thingy. Which is very difficult. So, STICKER, HERE I COMEEEEEE! :D

I'm bringing bubbles to school tomorrow cause:

One!) It's a thursday which means i'll probably reach home at 3+/4. YAY!
Two!) I heart bubbles
Three!) It'll cheer everyone up since there's jogging
Four!) It'll cheer everyone up since there's PE
Five!) It'll cheer everyone up since there's math (i think)
Six!) I just want to
Seven!) I know you want me to
Eight!) I want to look at planes now
Nine!) I don't want to ou3 her, it's tiring
Ten!) Bubbles heart me back (:

Come look for me tomorrow if you wna play with bubbles (: hahaha but i haven't updated this place for ages, nobody will read this post till 3 months later.

It's okay Mr. Bubble, we'll keep each other company (:

I know what makes me cry very easily. AUDITIONS.

I just dug out the phone i used when i was eleven.

HAHAHA it took 3 minutes to load omg. Am i ever grateful for my lovely egg phone. It's the BEST. AGREE!

I just found out something that makes me go :D but hahaha it wasn't found out by me anyway. I suck at PI stuff, just pay LimQX $10 per hr (WHICH IS OVERPRICED BTW)

I update like twice in two nights, good right.

Please don't embarrass me anymore okay, the 3p people. Can die.

OMG I NEVER BLOG FOR LIKE A MILLION YEARS.

But i don't feel like cos i'm hungry.

Walao, i'm in lurbe lah, okay, don't disturb me.

Leave me to grin grossly to myself, thanks. (:

QIXUAN: Thanks a kazillion for your letter which made me super determined to enjoy OAC no matter what happens (: and it was this lovely long letter with a weirdo pasted behind (i don't freaking know who that is HAHA) that kept me motivated and happy despite eating raw broccoli that tastes like apples+flowers, showering in damn cold water, sleeping on a concave bed, putting up with the nonsense of my classmates. I'm thankful to have a senior and a friend like you despite you being a pig 90% of the time. I know this is mushy but that's the main point lah. I ♥ you back.

and since you don't want to reply my text telling me what color you like, i shall just give you green which is a lovely color.